As I continue to work through finding job (next update tomorrow), one of the things I have begun to grapple with in a serious way is the fact that the chances of a move are climbing higher and higher.
To be honest, I am unsure how I feel about this.
On the one hand of course, a move would certainly not be out of the question. As I have written for some time now, New Home is not really "home" in that sense of the word, merely a place that I have lived for the past 15 years. My roots here, so much as they exist, are pretty shallow: beyond my Iaijutsu dojo and the rabbit shelter, there is little that I would miss about here.
On the other hand, those two items - my dojo and the rabbit shelter - would make the leaving very hard indeed.
Coming back fresh from a training in Iaijutsu, leaving at this moment seems very hard indeed. There is a great deal that I still need to work on that being part of a dojo (instead of being on my own) would benefit me greatly. And Iaijutsu has become a constituent part of my life, not just a hobby or practice that I engage in. To lose the benefit of that direct involvement seems grievous indeed.
I am sure at least one person will ask the question "Could you open a dojo wherever you land?" The question is not quite as simple as that: one does not just "open" a dojo. At best it would start out as "study group", and requires the support of my current Sensei as well as the permission of our headmaster. And, of course, the reality is in that situation, I would have to act as Sensei as well. Which is, frankly, a bit terrifying.
This thought, for all of its implications, has come up before and was something that I gave additional thought to while in Japan (hopefully more on that next week).
The rabbit shelter is a bit more straightforward of course; there are always animal shelters almost anywhere you go that are always looking for volunteers. Still, it is not my shelter that I have spent the last amount of years at. It would just be, well, weird.
I have said for years I think I have one more move in me, but I was hoping (and assuming) that would be back to The Ranch, not to another third location which might end up as a waystation. Which makes me sigh a bit. Moving is not something I really enjoy - although to be fair, the two potential positions both include relocation packages. The only thing worse than moving, I suppose, is having to pay for the move.
But in reality given where we are in the search and interest in positions, it seems that this is a possibility that is going to have to be given some level of consideration. Better to have a clear vision and plan for if and when such a thing happens instead of pretending the thing will not come to pass at all, when all the data to the contrary suggests it is a real possibility.