I will be honest: work is becoming more and more of a consuming thing. I have gone from a 40-42 hour week to a 45 hour week to a 50 hour week to a 60 hour or more week. At one time I used to take lunch to go work out; I am now eating my lunch in meetings two hours late because that is the time that is available.
That said, that is just busy. When is it time to hang it up and start something else?
I am not very good at making that decision.
I had never thought to reach the level that I have - but that presents its own problems. It is likely that I will never exceed above this - and for someone that potentially has a working life of 10-15 years, that presents a bit of a problem in and of itself. It is hard to go back once you have been at a certain level - people always ask you "Why?" and although you can have good answers, for many it is always a thought in the back of their head.
But do simple math. My hourly rate has been cut in a third last week because of hours; do that long enough and one's life begins to look a lot like "Work" and very little else. I had to miss iai - twice - this week due to a deadline. Which is distressing because it is still the one thing that I cling to when everything else seems to be falling away.
I would say that the decision point is when something becomes "irredeemable" - but what does that look like? Not having cash in the bank is one thing, but we have plenty. Not having a viable product is one thing, but we have several.
It has been a long time since a job has come to dominate my life like this. And it is making me think - but no answers.
The only thing I think I can safely say that if this is the new normal, this is not the future I want for myself. So something will have to be done.