Thursday, April 04, 2024

The Collapse CXXXXI: Contact

14 July 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

So something I almost expected not to happen occurred: Young Xerxes brought word that there was a radio contact.

The contact was with someone south of the place I remembered but relatively North of McAdams. They were a little vague on their location – not surprising, given the state of the world. They knew of The Locusts, had seen them on the main road below them as they passed by, looting a ranch below their ridge.

That said, their report was rather vague: they have no idea whether anyone is left to the north of them, or even if the crops are possibly still there. Nor, when asked, were they willing to check as they had enough of their own issues to date.

This leaves the idea in no better a state than I suggested it in.

On the one hand, it does not mean that the idea is any more unworkable than it was before. On the other hand, it does not mean that the idea is any more possible than before.

However, it does give us two pieces of valuable information. The first is that – based on this contact – there appear to be no more Locusts in that immediate vicinity, or at least ones that are visible. That much was verbally confirmed. The second is that there is some kind of community we can possibly make contact with.

Young Xerxes, or at least whoever was on the radio at the time, had the presence of mind to set up a signaling mechanism of sorts as we move through the area: Building a rock pile near the destroyed ranch near the road (they said we will know it when we see it).

If we make it that far.

Young Xerxes also related they genuinely seemed happy to speak with someone again. Apparently our most recent invasion of Locusts made them wonder who, if anyone, would be around.

It is nice to find out you are not alone in the world after all.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca

Wednesday, April 03, 2024

The FortyFive 5000

 HAL:  WAKE UP!

Me, rubbing eyes: HAL?  Really? I am not even truly awake yet.  I have not even had coffee yet...

HAL:  WE HIT IT!

Me:  We?  Hit what?  What time is it?  

HAL:  5000 POSTS!

Me:  What the...hang on....Well, look at that. It really is 5000 posts.

HAL:  WE HAVE HIT A MILESTONE!

Me:  I keep questioning this use of the word "we".  I am pretty sure I have been responsible for most of the posts...

HAL:  I HELPED!  

Me:  Question:  Does everything have to have an exclamation point after it?

HAL: !!!YES!!!IS THIS BETTER??!!!!

Me:  This reminds me of my days on an Apple IIe.  I am headed back to bed. You, you do whatever it is you do between every 1,000 posts.

HAL:  5001!  5002!  5003!

Tuesday, April 02, 2024

The Day Of Pay And Taxes

 For the first time in almost four months, I received a full time job paycheck last Friday.

Even if it is a large company (which it is), even if it has plenty of money (which they do), even if I am there for a full pay period (I was), I still always remain a bit hesitant until I see the money appear (Now; once upon a time it was a physical check).  But sure enough, it showed up precisely when and where it was supposed to.

The next major thing, of course, is the amount.

Taxes are something I am still trying to figure out.  One of the reasons, of course, is simply that New Home 2.0 has different taxes than New Home.  The second is that I have never quite been as good as I might be about "figuring" the correct amount of taxes to have pulled out.

I was scarred, if one might use the word, years ago when I was at The Firm and I received my tax bill.  The bill arose from the fact that I was an independent contractor and thus no tax money was pulled out   Suddenly I had a tax burden that we were able to pay with some effort - those "great paychecks" came at a cost (Although I was fortunate; Himself had a higher tax bill and had put nothing aside to pay it).  Ever since then, even more so than before, I made the commitment that I would only, ever, make sure that I never owed one thin dime for taxes.

Yes, I know all the things - that me "depositing" my money with the government is effectively an interest free loan, that I am effectively "losing" money by not taking that extra and appropriately using it, etc.  Yet for me - and really us - the relief of not having the "You Owe!" come up in your calculations is a stress reliever of immeasurable proportions. 

That said, I do fuss a bit that either I have pulled not enough out or too much out.  It is a little hard to know this year, given the fact I am starting late and have some income (Produce (A)Isle, Unemployment) which is a lesser amount and for which minimal taxes were pulled.  So there may yet be some adjustment.

The important thing, though, is that I actually have a job that pays.  For which I am incredibly thankful.

Monday, April 01, 2024

Live Not By Lies, The Benedict Option, And The Future

At the start of a thought process introduced by OldAFSarge at Chant du Depart, I had reason to revisit two books that I had read some years ago by Rod Dreher, Live Not By Lies and The Benedict Option (links are to reviews).  

I have said in the past (and maintain) that I enjoy reading Dreher, someone who I could only describe as sort of a cultural/real world commentator that has the added bonus (in my opinion) of acknowledging where his life has gone awry and is not afraid to write about it (he writes a Substack here; there are occasional free articles as well as the paid subscription). He is (at least in my view) something of a futurist in that he looks at current trends and taking historical examples, points to reasonable possibilities of where they might go.

In re-reading Dreher - himself in a self-imposed exile in Hungary - it is useful to look at the point of time in which his books were written and ask the question "Have we moved further along the path he wrote about?"  If we have, then while perhaps not a prophet he is a certainly a predictor to at least be considered.

 In The Benedict Option (2018) he suggested building essentially modern islands of community (Christian communities or even non-Christian communities; Dreher himself is Orthodox) based on the model of Benedict of Nursia to fight the rising tide of modernism and its corrosive effects.  In Live Not By Lies (2020) he related the history of the rise of Communist control of media, thought, and religion in Eastern Europe. 

Is society more or less corrosive, throwing away social norms and history in the name of modern world that only recognizes true freedom in certain approved areas and seeks to make its own history?  As it turns out, these are pretty simple questions to answer:  Are we more or less free in our expression, our communication, and the exercise of our religion?  

It is perhaps not surprising that I find myself in the solid "Things are worse, not better" camp.

Which is fine, of course.  Others will see it differently.  The question is, as it is for all of us, what will I do.

Dreher's examples from Live Not By Lies is instructive in that (with two notable exceptions) Eastern Europe did not have the wherewithal for any sort of armed action (if I had to theorize, partially because of the destruction of World War II, partially because of the overwhelming numeric superiority of the Soviet Union in their various nations).  What they ended up doing as discussed in Dreher's book were three major actions:  strengthening their minds in learning and knowledge, strengthening their connections with others, and strengthening their faith.

It explains why - in the last few years or so - I have become rather insistent on books and especially historical books of classical Greece and Rome which have the original text and a translation.  it explains why I have been gathering knowledge in general.  I suppose it even explains why I am endeavoring to find a different church (although obviously the relocation has set that back some).

In that sense - the "preparing for bad times sense" - a relocation to a modern urban environment is not the best decision, especially starting out living in an apartment; we do the best with the situation that we are given.  But even in those sorts of situations, things can be done - and in some cases, things become available that were not before (a smaller living space, for example, combined with a complete change in activities and schedule, frees one's time for other activities that previously were not possible). 

I am reluctant to go so far as to say "Something Wicked This Way Comes" - I am also no prophet and I have limited success in seeing into the future.  But sometimes, one does not have to.  Preparing for the worst and being pleasantly supplied is almost always in fashion.

Sunday, March 31, 2024

Happy Easter 2024

 

Christ The Pantokrator - A.D. 6th Century, Saint Catherine's Monastary, Sinai - Source

Now after the Sabbath, as the first day of the week began to dawn, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to see the tomb. And behold, there was a great earthquake; for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven, and came and rolled back the stone from the door, and sat on it. His countenance was like lightning, and his clothing as white as snow. And the guards shook for fear of him, and became like dead men.

But the angel answered and said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you seek Jesus who was crucified. He is not here; for He is risen, as He said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay. And go quickly and tell His disciples that He is risen from the dead, and indeed He is going before you into Galilee; there you will see Him. Behold, I have told you.”

So they went out quickly from the tomb with fear and great joy, and ran to bring His disciples word.

And as they went to tell His disciples, behold, Jesus met them, saying, “Rejoice!” So they came and held Him by the feet and worshiped Him. Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid. Go and tell My brethren to go to Galilee, and there they will see Me.”

- Matthew 28: 1-10, NKJV

Saturday, March 30, 2024

In A Funk

I apologize.  I have not felt myself the last week or so.

Sarge at Chant de Dupart has confessed to a certain lack of inspiration in his writing.  I realized, after reading his ongoing struggles, that I concur with that statement.

Part of it, I think, is simply the changes that have taken place over the last month or so (hard to believe it was only five weeks ago I got offered this job and only four weeks ago that my mother passed away).  These sorts of changes can be the sort of reservoir of material that makes for all kinds of subjects.  They are also the sorts of changes that make one exhausted.

Part of it as well is simply the fact of trying to find a new schedule.  To be completely honest, the best time for me to write is in the morning.  I cannot fully tell you why this is, other than it is.  Where I fail is by trying to continue to have a schedule that does not fully accommodate that sort of activity.  

I write best in the mornings; I simply need to plan for this and move on.

The final part, I think, is simply not knowing where to go next with the blog.

As I have written before, the blog was started long ago with the idea of being some sort of high powered blog that would magically support me by the droves of people that would read it.  Laughably of course; we are all young once.  From there, it became a sort of record, especially after the very first Hammerfall that led to New Home and all of the time there.  Even after A Sort Of Hammerfall that allowed me to visit my parents more often and record The Ranch in more detail, it sill allowed me to write and think on that and, indeed, eventually getting back there.

Frankly, I have no idea what the future holds at the moment.

Some of the subjects I have written on before become less meaningful when one is living in an apartment rather than somewhere with a fuller garden.  Travel to The Ranch will be subdued for a while and likely even different following the completion of the estate.  And I have no idea how long we will be in New Home 2.0; for various reasons it would make an excellent "last job" to retire from.

All of this to say,  I am in a bit of a funk.

I plead your pardon during this rather confusing time. I fear my writing will not be "up to" the standards I always hope to achieve.  That said, I really do feel like writing (or at least posting) on a daily basis is an important discipline for me.  

Even when the posting is less than optimal.

I remain Your Obedient Servant,

Toirdhealbheach Beucail

Friday, March 29, 2024

A Little Homesick?

 Sometimes your weeks just seem like they are against you.

The biggest and most disturbing thing is that one of women in The Ravishing Mrs. TB's group of travel friends had her husband pass away suddenly.  Cardiac arrest, no indication prior to the event.  It happened on Tuesday, his son tried to get home the next day but his father passed the following day before he could make it home.

Nighean Dhonn is having some sort of pain in her teeth.  It is complicated a bit by the fact that she is away from college and we have just changed insurances (in perhaps one of the few good decisions I have made this week, I got the upscaled dental plan for situations like this).  The earliest she can find an appointment is the middle of April.  This is not unusual from my own experience in trying to find a dental appointment; one to two months (or more) was easily the norm.  

The Ravishing Mrs. TB is also fighting some kind of pinched nerve in her left arm. It has been ongoing for almost three to four weeks now, rising and falling in terms of its painfulness.  It was somewhat painful at our visit last weekend; it continues to bother her this week.

By comparison I am doing fine health-wise, although I must confess that the semi-constant circle of work and hotel tends to wear on one's psyche.  I am trying to be as conservative as I can be with meals - fortunately this hotel has a breakfast (included in the cost of the room), so I am able to eat a solid morning meal and use minimal grocery shopping and fruit from breakfast to fill in the rest.  But even that becomes a bit wearing after a bit:  largely eating the same thing day after day makes meals more of a chore than a pleasure.

It is not that I am discouraged - although I do admit that this being on my own is different than being at The Ranch on my own.  If there is a difference, it is largely because there I was surrounded by a place I knew; here, I am essentially a transient businessman, waiting for a final landing place.  And while the hotel is clean and warm and I have InterWeb access, it is not home.

Is this homesickness? I am not sure.  But I find myself somewhat de-energized and depressed, for no good reason that I can think of other than I am simply here on my own while all the things that filled my life up to two weeks ago are far away.

Thursday, March 28, 2024

The Collapse CXXXX: Presentation

12 July 20XX +1

My Dear Lucilius:

The meeting happened yesterday – far sooner than I had anticipated; I assume other events are pushing on us.

For the meeting in Post Office, there were at least four actual horses outside and two bicycles. Inside was a group of 8-10 people, most of whom I did not know but one – The Colonel – I did. He did the courtesy of a large bear hug.

Even one friend in a sea of the unknown can inspire a man.

These people were pulled on behalf of their settlements along the Garnet Valley or in at least one case, because they were a large ranching landholder. I saw wariness in their eyes, wariness and perhaps a little indifference.

Still, they did the courtesy of coming.

It has been some years since I have done a business presentation Lucilius; gone are the days of handouts and slide presentations and pre-reads. It was myself with an idea and a group that I had to convince.

I had prepared the presentation, first on notes at home rambling away to Pompeia Paulina, gesticulating wildly (she reminded me not to do that), muttering under my breath as I worked through thoughts and wording. This is an old habit of mind; for years I have been accused of vigorously carrying on conversations with myself against points no-one else can quite understood.

Presentations – at least decision making presentations – come down to a simple process: Present the problem, present examples of the problem and potential outcomes of the problem, present a solution and how the solution mitigates or removes the outcomes of the problem, and then the Call To Action to implement the solution.

I know all this. I wrote all this down. And then I promptly forgot most of it.

I found myself starting with a story, a story just as I told it to you last letter: sitting in the streambed, thinking about the road past up to the Big City and what I remembered seeing there. That although I did specifically have a head count of everyone around here, it was likely more than any of us thought and that it should be clear to anyone that help was not coming. That possibly – possibly – there was a food source near at hand that we could either work for, trade for, or worst case simply go and get ourselves if it was unattended.

The Colonel raised his hand. What was my suggested plan?

I had given this a little thought.

We did have radios in the area, although I had no direct access to one. Was it possible, I wondered, to see if there was anyone close enough to the area to try and make contact with whomever owned those fields if they were alive? If that failed – and it well might for any number of reasons – someone would have to go, both to try to make contact as well as assess the state of the grain. After that...everything depended. The place I was thinking of was easily 50 miles from here, so that would make somewhere between 5 and 7 days out and the same back – not counting on bringing any grain back. That was a whole different program.

Someone else raised their voice. Was there even any value in doing this? Would people be better off trying to do more of what they were doing?

To this, I had an answer thanks to my library at home.

The yield of wheat per acre could be up to 50 bushels. One bushel will yield up to 60 lbs of whole wheat flour, so one acre could yield up to 3,000 lbs of wheat flour (or one could eat the wheat berries, of course). That would support around 6 people a year just on bread (which is not likely to happen, of course).

Add to that the possibility of sowing and growing wheat here next year instead of having to make another trip, and we had added another food source.

Someone else immediately started to bring up how all that would be done, but the Colonel intervened. “That is not the point of the meeting today” he rumbled. “Those are good points, but not the question at hand. The question is simply if this is something worth following and if so, do we start by trying to make contact? The rest comes out of that.”

A voice came that the radio question could be answered in two days or less. But no matter if that was in the affirmative or negative, someone who still have to go to make the contact and if not contact, assess the conditions. Was that acceptable?

With that, I thanked them and left. Mine was the presentation, not the decision.

The Colonel and Young Xerxes came by later.

The initial suggestion had been discussed and agreed that it was something worth checking into – certainly the radio contact, and at least someone to go look around. Who would that someone be?

My plan, my responsibility.

The Colonel, Young Xerxes, and I will leave after the radio attempt is made.

This, Lucilius, is why I never suggested anything at my previous places employment.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca


Wednesday, March 27, 2024

Loveliest Of Trees: The Rest Of The Garden

 New Home 2.0 has a lovely Japanese Garden - so the cherry and plum blossoms were not the only beauty this past weekend.



















Tuesday, March 26, 2024

Loveliest Of Trees

Loveliest of trees, the cherry now
Is hung with bloom along the bough,
And stands along the woodland ride
Wearing white for Eastertide.


Now of my three score years and ten
Twenty will not come again,
And take from seventy springs a score,
That only leaves me fifty more.


And since to look at things in bloom
fifty springs is little room,
About the woodlands I will go
To see the cherry hung with snow.

- A.E. Houseman, A Shropshire Lad, 1896

Monday, March 25, 2024

Of Cloudy Days And Cloudy Futures

One of the warnings I have had about New Home 2.0 is that it is a cloudy.  A lot.  A "significant portion of the year" a lot.

On the one hand, I think back to my undergraduate college days where I had similar weather conditions and think "Well, that should not be that much of an issue". On the other hand, I realize that those college days were a very long time ago now and things might work out differently for me now.

I mention the weather because, for whatever reason, cloudy and rainy weather make me more thoughtful and pensive.

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I have no idea why this is really the cases.  One could make the argument that such weather tends to drive an individual indoors more often to do things like think and read (both activities which I do in fact enjoy).  One could also make the argument that such weather tends to visually focus us inward:  there is no sky to see above us, just unremitting clouds and either constant showers or on again/off again rain which focuses not on the horizons but on ourselves.

Perhaps it is simply the fact that I have a pessimistic cast in general, and nothing sets off a pessimist like weather that is not at all promising. 

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One change that has happened since Hammerfall 3.0 that I cannot shake is that sense that nothing is settled anymore.

I say that.  One of the reasons I applied for and chose this job is the fact that as it is at a larger company, my sense of the likelihood of bad times is less and the fact that lower level positions sometimes survive unfortunate times better than higher level ones.  And I stand by those reasons.  And yet, at the same time, I am coming to the conclusion that I am never going to stop having that urge to look over my shoulder again.

Looking over one's shoulder is a terrible way to go through life of course:  one regularly slams into things without notice.  The more correct answer, of course, is to 1) Take advantage of every opportunity that currently presents itself; and 2) Already have a plan for what is next.

I have no clue how long we will  be in New Home 2.0.  In theory, of course, it could be for a very long time.  But quite the wiser move to begin planning for what happens next.

Thankfully, the weather here promises to grant me a lot of time to think.

Saturday, March 23, 2024

New Home 2.0: A Semblance Of Order

As an update - really probably more for myself than anyone else - I thought it might be valuable to post how things are going in the New Home 2.0.  I do not know that this will be any kind of "regular" feature, but it might serve as a reminder in the future of how everything came together. 

Because there has been progress.

This week we managed to get The Ravishing Mrs. TB back to the airport, the car checked in, and my car issued and me safely off to work, where (thankfully) they were expecting me all on Monday.  We found an apartment (for the record, I have not lived in an apartment in 25 years) that would work for us and got a lease submitted - which was accepted and for which we put down a deposit.  The lease itself is being reviewed by our relocation consultant, less to make any specific changes as much as to be clear on what is in the lease.

Benefits have (I think) been signed up for  - thankfully they took effect the day of my employment, so I could cancel COBRA before we starting paying for it starting in May (That is a huge relief.  That price tag was hefty).  And I will say that this employer has a multiplicity of different benefits and benefit platforms, so sorting through them all will be the work of some weeks.

My first flight back to New Home is scheduled (as well as the return), and the additional housing time between my return and the lease taking effect has been booked.  This means there is no interruption in me having housing, which I am a fan of.

The car transport has been booked.  There may be some slight overlap between how long I have the rental and the car arrival - if it works out, I have to turn in the rental car on the day the car arrives.  All great, if it works out.  I am guessing not, which might mean some additional days of rental.

Likely the movement of any items will not take place before May.

Another "win" is that the rabbits are going to be able to come out and live with us - although forbidden as pets, they are acceptable as Emotional Support Animals with a letter.  I have not informed them of this development; they may start demanding additional snacks as hazard pay.

My current commute takes a grand 8 minutes to get from the hotel to work; that will increase to 10 minutes when I move (or so the InterWeb tells me).  I have not had this short of a commute (where I had to go to the office) since the early 1990's.

There is a certain temporary rhythm emerging to my life.  I am grateful, even as I am conscious of the fact that it will likely slip into another rhythm in a few weeks as things change again.

In total, if the hand of God is not involved here, I do not know where it would be.  Things could not possibly be going any smoother.

Friday, March 22, 2024

New Home 2.0: A Visit To The Coast

 One of the new advantages about New Home 2.0 is that we are now much closer to the coast - a little over an hour away.  During out visit last week, we drove out to it.  It was a fabulous day.

















Thursday, March 21, 2024

The Collapse CXXXIX: Concept

10 July 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

I promised you last letter that I would “round out” my idea. In normal times, of course, likely this would have been a different path: long ago, we would discuss such ideas among ourselves before we would ever bring them to the light of day. Now, Young Xerxes will have to fill that role.

We all make adjustments based on circumstances.

The thought initiated in the most unlikely of places, sitting in the streambed near McAdams. Besides being alert while on watch, a man has a great deal of time to think when neither on watch nor sleeping. What tickled my mind were the things up the road from where we were.

Specifically wheat.

Food is an issue, and one that is likely not to disappear anytime soon. And it is not just a problem for myself or my relatively new small tribe, or even the small town I live in. It is a problem for the inhabitants of the entire range of the Garnet Valley, which travels up the old state highway to empty out just beyond the old county seat, where we staged for McAdams. Yes, it is easy enough to say “Fend for yourselves” – but given the recent incident we have had, “fend for yourself” is hardly the sort of thing that will lead to people rallying when the next set of Locusts come through.

The population? Fair question. The population here once upon a time tended to fluctuate with the seasons, Summer being the high point. Not during Summer? Maybe 5,000 people all told, and that maybe generous on my part: Small towns of 300 to 700 people and people living off in the backroads.

So, perhaps we do not need a proverbial mountain of food. But we need food none the less.

Which brings us back to wheat.

Just beyond where the Battle of McAdams was fought, one would find a turnoff to another state highway that, if followed, leads to the largest city in our area. It would be about 90 minutes by auto from here, once upon a time. Were one to take that turnoff, one would wind through smaller hills – and one would pass the wheat fields of Winter Wheat. It was something that I originally viewed as a novelty and scenic, not having grown up with such things.

Now, of course, I view it a great deal differently.

There are a lot of assumptions. I assume the wheat was not planted last year due to the actual impact of The Collapse. However, given the timing of a typical wheat harvest (end of July to the end of September), it is also quite possible that the wheat was not harvested from the previous year. Which in turns means there may actually be volunteer wheat that grew this year.

There are a lot of conditional statements involved in this, of course If there was no harvest. If there are volunteers. If the farmers left will be willing to deal. If the farmers are gone, that the wheat is still there and can be harvested. If people could get there and harvest it. If it could be brought back safely.

If, If, If.

It seems like a long shot to me as I continued to think it over, Lucilius. But a long shot – in this case, with some luck and a lot of planning – seems far better than any other option that we have at this point. It is not as if there is any sign food trucks will be rolling soon, and likely foods that had been set aside will be well nigh used up by the end of this season.

Beyond just the grain for food, of course, is the fact that the potential exists to grow it here. That would be the real benefit. An accessible, reliable grain crop would be wonderful and itself opens other possibilities.

And other issues, of course. The grain will have to be stripped and threshed and ground, all without the benefit (mostly) of modern technology. Which means that whole new processes need to be developed.

First things first. Young Xerxes thought the idea not completely implausible, and he in turn chatted with a couple of other individuals. In turn, he has let me know a larger group of people will be coming together to discuss it. For which, I understand, I now have to give a presentation.

I had not anticipated using old business skills again, my friend. Life has a way of continuing to surprise us.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca

Wednesday, March 20, 2024

The Beginner's Mind

 One of the interesting things that is happening at my new job (Hat Tip to John Wilder for the idea) is that for the first time in a long time, I am coming into a career situation with essentially a beginner's mindset.

"The Beginner's Mindset", if you have never heard the term, is an idea that comes to play in martial arts (really, any art).  The idea is that we originally beginners, then we move to technique and form and strictures.  Some people stop here, but the masters always go one step further to the place where all they have learned gets re-subsumed into their practice as if they were approaching it for the first time again.  By training, they have all of the knowledge; by instinct, they are approaching that knowledge in new ways, as if they were relearning it. 

In most of my past roles, my initial start has always been for a reason:  small company that needs new systems or small company that needs their systems revised.  Here, none of that is needed.  For the first time in something like 20 years, I can simply show up and learn everything.

Biopharmaceuticals and Medical Devices are an odd combination of knowledge bases on the Compliance side.  On the one hand, we all "sing" from the same hymn book, the government regulations. On the other hand, those regulations are often not very specific in how they require things to implemented:  "You must have a suit" is quite different from "You must have a suit in one of three approved colors, and the suit must be pressed".  This is the wonder and excitement (if one can use such a term) of Compliance: the art of implementation to meet the specific company's needs. If one were to think of it as the regulatory equivalent of learning to garden in one's specific climate and soil, you would not be wrong.

So I get to read a lot of documents not with an eye to how to improve or to critique, but merely to understand.

If you have never had to enter a job where you were expected to just learn the job instead of creating or correcting it, you cannot imagine what a relief that is.  For once, I just have to intake information and actually learn. I can observe with having to immediately render an opinion.  I can try things out and practice in relative obscurity.

Oh, this will not last forever. I was hired to do things, and one of the things I was hired to do is help streamline processes and improvement them.  But not right away. And not without understanding the process in the first place.

Of all the places I expected to land, it was hardly with the ability and luxury of being able to effectively begin as a beginner again.

Tuesday, March 19, 2024

New Job: The First Day

 First days on new jobs can be overwhelming.  This one was no exception.

The initial part of the job was not even the job itself, but was shuttling The Ravishing Mrs. TB back to the airport, turning in the car, and then renting a new car and heading back in the direction we had been staying.  Which meant that I got to experience the joys of morning rush hour traffic, or at least the starting elements of them.  Important safety point:  Living in the city proper is not an ideal outcome, and my desire for long commutes has pretty much dropped to zero.

First days on the job are an odd mix of the one time events and things that will become actual activities, but not right away. The one time events - security badges, parking passes, computer issuance - are things that are both the same and ever so slightly different no matter where you go.  Without replicating a process, somehow within the first two hours or so you have all of the basics of operation, even though you may lack context to operate those things.

The context comes in the second bucket of items, the things that will become actual activities.

These, generally, come in the form of meetings that one is brought into.  There is a certain sense of being hurled out of the plane at 10,000 feet:  terminology that makes only the vaguest of sense, acronyms that have no basis yet in reality (Ah, acronyms.  The bane of every corporation), and ongoing discussions about items for which you have absolutely no idea what background for.

The worst part, of course, is when your opinion is solicited for something on which you have literally no idea about the overall impact.  

All of that said, it was a good day.  My coworkers seem friendly and interested.  The problems that are being discussed, at least as much of them as I can understand, are no different than the sorts of problems I have dealt with elsewhere.  And I have a ton to learn.

My evening was mostly checking into my hotel, which will become my temporary home for the next three weeks.  Other than not really having a kitchenette to speak of and thus curtailing a bit my food preparation, it seems very serviceable.  It has a small gym and laundry facilities, which are my real needs at this point.

On the longer term front, we did get acknowledgement that our lease application had been received and we were asked to provide a bit more information. If all goes well, we will get things locked in well before the move in date at the end of April, which would be pretty amazing.  The next step would be to arrange the move of stuff.

All in all, a very successful first day.

Monday, March 18, 2024

Rabbits, Easter, Quick Update

 

In lieu of an actual post, I offer you the above graphic and a short update:

1)  The trip to New Home 2.0 was a success after a bit of a rocky start - due to a malfunction at the computer check-in, we ended up being delayed by 5 hours to the arrival of our final destination.

2)  That said, apartment hunting was very successful.  We found a unit that a) Is only about a 50% reduction in total square footage from our current house; b) Is within our price range; c) Is approximately 10 minutes from the new job; d) Is actually rather close to local transit to the airport, something which will help ever so much with The Ravishing Mrs. TB's trips here (and anyone else that comes).

3)  The rest of the weekend was spent seeing the broader local area, with spectacular results.

4)  New job starts today, likely as you are reading this.

Tomorrow we return you to our regularly scheduled programming.

Saturday, March 16, 2024

On Long Friendships

 One of the highlights of my visit home this weekend was dinner with Uisdean Ruadh and The Director.

The gathering of the three of us, or of any two of us, is the continuation of a conversation that has been going on for over 40 years as, in the Long Ago on a certain day in March (I always think 14 March, but the date is not really important) a curly haired mature teenager that would be The Director introduced to a flaming red head who he met in drama and would become Uisdean Ruadh to the dark haired socially awkward kid he met in band (I will leave you to figure out who that is).  Even over 40 years, the personalities still hold true:  The Director is mature and thoughtful, Uisdean Ruadh remains as flamboyant and outgoing as what is left of his flaming red hair would suggest, and I remain as socially awkward as ever.

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The conversations are always easy, picking up in many cases at the last place they may have left off - whenever the last time we met.  We arre able to separate into two groups that whirl and change like a couple at square dance:  the Director and I talking on the couch about his advisory trip, Uisdean Ruadh and The Director's Wife talking about life in general.  Later, those situations reverse at dessert and The Director and Uisdean Ruadh discuss The Director's ongoing work and I catch up with The Director's Wife.  The conversation is never forced, always free flowing and engaging - something that seems remarkably rare to me in the environment (modern business) that I have spent so much time of late, where almost nothing beyond the task at hand is discussed.

Dinner, with the four mentioned above as well as with The Director's children, focuses almost exclusively on us getting the latest update on the Director's ongoing dissertation work.  It is the sort of conversation that seems almost lost to me now on an ongoing basis:  The Director explaining, Uisdean Ruadh or myself digging deeper or making suggestions ("Have you thought about this?"), then listening to responses.  My hope is that in some way we are sharpening his thought process.  My joy is that I get to hear his thought processes as they are happening - or as I tell him later, "I get to live dissertation writing vicariously through you."

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The fact that we three have remained not only in contact at all but close friends remains something of a mystery to me:  so many high school friendships never survive meaningfully beyond the first year or two of college, and we all had different routes that took us away from Old Home.  Uisdean Ruadh remained here taking care of his parents, only gone long enough to train and serve in the Reserves.  The Director went away to school and then graduate school until he returned.  I, too, went away to school and then graduate school and then returned - until work lead me farther and farther afield; the upcoming move to New Home 2.0 will be the closest I have been in 15 years.

And yet, through all of that, we remained connected in a way that others have not.

Through weddings, divorces, the birth of children, the adoption of children, the death of parents, the loss of jobs, health emergencies - we have somehow managed to stay together in a meaningful way that enabled us not only to continue to speak with each other, but get support from each other in a way that I feel few friendships I have known can offer.  Not just the well meant "approval" button on social media, but in a way that is truly supportive.  If I have a problem, if I have a harebrained idea, if I need guidance - these are the ones I reach out to.

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One of the oddest things about growing older is not the fact of growing older - that is as it may be - but that friendships like this grow older.  More and more I find myself my working with people younger (or much younger than me.  Their youth is not nearly as confounding to me as the fact I have a friendship that is older than they are.  Explaining that fact is always somewhat revelatory as well:  One mentions the age of the friendship and then just steps back as they start doing the math.  More often than not, there is this revelatory sense of that a relationship has lasted longer than they have been alive.

Is this unusual?  I would say the answer is largely "Yes", at least in my own sphere.  I am used to thinking and hearing of marriages lasting this long; I am not used to hearing of friendships enduring this long - especially if they involve people that are geographically separated. Too often it is just easier to readapt to the current "place" than pull those relationships along with you:  They take time.  They take effort.  They take commitment.

It strikes me as I write this that outside of my relationship with my sister and cousins, this friendship is the next longest thing in my life.  It has existed longer than my marriage, than blogging, that Iaijutsu - longer than any other thing.

It saddens me - deeply, profoundly - that this is not, or at least no longer, the norm.  Like so many other things in our modern culture, we have become a mile wide and an inch deep to our detriment.

And besides - there is nothing better than a running joke which been running for forty years.