The whole thing started in late May when I broke a tooth.
I am a stress consumer of snacks and - conveniently - at work there is a large container of mint Life Savers. I was stressed and not thinking and bit down; off came a part of a molar on the right side of my mouth. I did not crack the tooth (fortunately), but there was a new set of sharp edges in my mouth which created problems for my tongue. I tried to manage it for a day, then made an emergency appointment at the dentist. She ground it off and reminded me that I needed to not do that (also, that my enamel was pretty much gone there and any future repairs would be less "delightful".
I resolved this was not going to happen again.
To help manage this process, I did two things. The first was to reload the food tracking app on my phone and make myself use it to keep track of everything I ate (and hopefully shame me into not gulping Life Savers like candy). This also drove to the fact that with a hike coming up in the near future, I needed to carry less of "me" around. (Which seems to be working: I have completely stopped consuming Life Savers, reduced my overall snacking, and am down almost 10 lbs.).
The second - tracking my food as I was - is that it re-ignited more fully using my bullet journal to track my overall activities.
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I have used a bullet journal - or dot journal, or (I am sure) a host of other names - off and on for six years. In short, there are a multitude of ways to use it (which really appeals to my "Let me keep trying things until something sticks" nature); the core is using a series of "bullets" or check marks to track activities that need to be done, are not done, or need to be moved. There are as many ways to do them as there are personalities and plenty of resources to do it (Dot Journaling: A Practical Guide).
The other great thing about them is that one keeps a table of contents up front and then enters information as it happens - no matter what; thus it becomes less of a daily planner and almost more of a journal or information source. In mine, I have weekly plans, conversations with my career coach, items from a book, plans for things - all there in sequence and a table of contents entry, ready to be recalled.
A challenge of learning to use it for planning has been "what" to include in a weekly plan. Over time, I have learned that activities that I will always do as a routine need not be there - reading the Bible in the morning for example, or studying Old English. Other things - things that I might let slip or find a reason not to do - benefit greatly from being an item to check off.
It really is true: there is something indefinable about checking something off that actually creates more of an incentive to complete things.
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The system of writing things down and getting them done was working - in fits and starts to be sure, but working (one of the great challenges for me in this system is to accept that everything does not get done and sometimes an arrow pushing something to next week is okay). I felt like the needle was starting to move in parts of my life.
And then, last weekend, I took an outing.
The outing was not the issue. The fact that I spent money on the outing was not the issue (this was known up front). What was the issue was the fact that I had not planned out how much I intended to spend.
No, it was not astronomical and no banks were broken. No gambling was involved and no large sums of money were lost. But it forced me to recognize there was a gap in the system.
Planning was not just for the things I wanted to accomplish. Planning was for those things that were fun as well, if for no other reason than insuring I left with the same sense of fun I had planned for.
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It was a good lesson for me - especially after the relative success I feel I have been enjoying with the system I have cobbled together. It is really good practice for whatever not doing my main line of work will look like, whenever that day comes (I keep hoping more quickly, but we will have to see).
It is good to have some level of spontaneity. It is a better to have spontaneity with a plan.