There is nothing more devastating than disappointing one's self.
No, nothing bad happened and the failure was confined to myself being disappointed in me. But for all that there is no impact on anyone or any thing, it still leaves me feeling self-conscious and broken.
It strikes me as odd that sometimes my worst enemy is myself - or rather, things that I believe about myself, things that either never had a basis in reality or at least no longer do.
Perhaps it is my optimism, but if I fail and it impacts no one and isn't seen by anyone, my usual response is to sort of laugh and utter thanks that nobody will ever be the wiser.
ReplyDeleteThat's a good thought Ed and in this case, quite probably true. Given that I am bit more pessimistic though...
Delete"I will not stop at the bakery, I will not stop at the bakery"............ I am a weak man.
ReplyDeleteIn some many ways Nylon12, in so many ways.
DeletePeople are fallible and maintaining vigilance into slipping into bad habits is required to be a grown up. When we fail, just acknowledge we are imperfect, pick yourself up and dust yourself off and slog onward, vowing you will try and do better in the future.
ReplyDeleteIt really is rather that simple. I just slipping in the first place. But yes, one dusts one's self off and carries on.
DeleteWhat’s the big deal, TB?
ReplyDeleteThe self and soul is like a tool or a weapon: you play it’s strengths, and do all you can to cover for its limitations. I recommend some remedial stoicism and a strong dose of Ed! 😉
Glen, I just hate failing myself. But both of your suggestions - remedial stoicisim and Ed's thoughts - are appreciated and will be followed.
DeleteSigh. "Stoicism", not "Stoicisim"...
DeleteJust because you bought another book there is no reason as to why to feel bad about it.
ReplyDelete~hobo
... and whoever said 'failure' was a bad thing? It is a learning experience, unless you knew it was a mistake and did it anyways. Then that's just plain silly. If we don't have setbacks we would never grow.
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Hobo - Sadly, book purchases fall into a different category, one not nearly failure like.
DeleteIt is a setback - not something I cannot recover from, just something that I finally have to be willing to admit about myself. All is well.
Life is discipline. Discipline starts with the smallest acts.
ReplyDeleteThat is it exactly John. And I failed to enact the smallest act by choice, which then became a logical outcome. It has reminded me about how much, at least for myself, I need a very disciplined life.
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