And just like that, we lurch into December.
December has come all too fast this year, helped not only by the fact that having a project at work that is consistently driven by "end of the year" dates (so one is always looking to the end of the year) as well as the fact that with an unplanned vacation last week and the expected post vacation catch up, the month suddenly shows up.
And it is already turning out to be busy.
I always think "This December feels busier than most", but I coming to believe that this is more of my memory slipping than anything else. They are all busy, now - perhaps with the different sorts of things than in previous years, but none the less busy.
I am largely convinced that any memories I have of Christmas being a time to slow down and and appreciate the season were somehow much earlier in my childhood and really just reflected a somewhat flawed view of how the world was actually functioning versus how it was functioning. With high school and college it became the season of finals, with work it became the season of completing projects for goals and year end reviews. Add to this our modern penchant of "24 hours a day/7 days a week/365 days a year", and it becomes much less of a season and much more of mad dash to December 25th for a brief rest - before trying to close out everything that was to be done by the end of the year.
I find myself poorer for it.
It is all to easy for me to make or write up a resolve for this year - "I will take it more slowly" or "I will listen to more Christmas music" or something like that, something with good intentions that will go precisely nowhere (even as I write this, vision of e-mails of December yet to come crowd out the sugarplums that should be dancing in my head). So perhaps this year I will try a slightly different tack and simply spend 5 minutes every day doing something related to the season, if it is just listening to a song (without doing anything else) or reading a short story or even looking at an ornament from the past.
It said that Scrooge ended up keeping Christmas in his heart of every day of the year. I could at least try to do for a few minutes in the season of Christmas and go from there.