Tuesday, October 28, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Cambodian Royal Palace I

 The Cambodian Royal Palace (Preah Barom Reacheaveang Chaktomuk Sereay Mongkol) located in Phnom Penh, is a palace complex consisting of the royal palace and religious sites.  The palace is of "newer vintage", being built between 1866 and 1870 by King Norodom.


The palace itself was rebuilt in 1912 and in 1932. It has been occupied since the 1860's by the royal family of Cambodia with the exception of the time when Cambodia was overcome by civil war and the Khmer Rouge.


Interestingly, security to enter the grounds was surprisingly light compared to what one might expect entering a similar complex in other parts of the world.



A picture of the current king, King Norodom Sihamoni.  The king is a popular figure in Cambodia, and we saw many pictures or representations of him.


Entering through the gate, one comes into the outer gardens.





A picture of the Throne Hall (we will go closer tomorrow):



Monday, October 27, 2025

October 2025 Grab Bag

 As discussed by Saturday's Haiku, Autumn is well and full underway here in New Home 2.0.  It is actually a bit of shock: approximately 3 weeks ago we had our last "Summer" day of 80 F and the temperature just started dropping after that with accompanying rain and wind.  We are now into full Autumn, with temperatures in the 50's and 40's and rain forecast for some part of the day for next two weeks or so.

I had become used to the quick approach of Summer in New Home.  I was not ready for the same at the other end of the season here.

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I made my monthly trip back to The Ranch the weekend before this past one.  I took down a couple of signs from the Barn, checked around the house, visited my Aunt and Uncle and The Cowboy and Young Cowboy and Uisdean Ruadh, took a rather long walk, and headed home.  

We have no offers since the rather unserious one in August; I suspect we will not hear of another until Spring unless other circumstances persuade someone that being "Away from it all" might be a grand idea.

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This month has been largely consumed by work following my arrival back from the Grand Canyon.  I am not sure how it turned out that way, but it did.  Plenty of later departures from work (same start time, of course) which has led to less of the things I want to work on getting done.  Part of that is a failure on my part to prioritize my time at home (my mornings are pretty well scheduled at this point), part of it is simply not enough time in the day.  Things (in theory) slow down in November, which is to be greatly desired at this point.

I am far more tired more often than I care for.

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During one of the small group meetings this month, someone brought figs from their tree at home.  I have never really enjoyed figs, but seeing as how I now had some and not otherwise knowing what to do with them, I dried them in the food dehydrator (along with apples to fill up the trays).  They are surprisingly good, at least to me.

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It is shocking to realize it is effectively the end of October.  We have 9.5 weeks left of 2025, but really that is a lot less when holidays are factored in.  The years certainly feel like they are picking up speed.

Sunday, October 26, 2025

A Year Of Humility (XIIL): Compassion

 When traveling to and from The Ranch for my monthly travels, I have taken to using a local private parking lot:  the price is no more than the nearby major airport parking lot and rather than wait endlessly for a bus to come by, I can get a pick up at the lot immediately and a trip back to the parking lot in about 10 minutes after requesting a pickup.  For the slight inconvenience of being farther from the airport, it has worked out well.

Last weekend upon my return from The Ranch, it seemed a different story.

After an initial contact (all done by your phone and texting now), I wait the usual 10 minutes or so.  No bus. To be fair, I think to myself, it is a busy time.  So I wait more, as other shuttles pull in and away and as they do, the crowd waiting for my shuttle became more apparent.

Final, about 20 minutes in, the shuttle pulls in - not at my standing point of course (it never works that way) but about 20 feet beyond me.  The crowd - larger than a single shuttle bus - lurches towards it.  And, sure enough, I was the first one to not make it on.  The driver, looking a little harried, says the next bus would be along shortly.

And so we wait.  And wait about another twenty minutes.  At this point in the program I am tired, cold, and looking at a 30-40 minute drive just to get home.  I watch - we all did - as another round of other shuttle buses come by, load up, and head out.  I begin to question the wisdom of using this parking lot.

The next bus pulls up, a good 45 minutes after I made the request.  The door opens, and out comes a man who is clearly in his 70's, our driver.  Immediately half of my frustration disappears.  He works hard to load everyone's suitcase and everyone up. We manage to get everyone on the second bus.

As he is collecting the parking cards with our spot numbers, he apologizes profusely for the delay.  He just came from a drop off where one of his passengers had a walker, a wheelchair, an electric scooter, and her luggage, all needing to be dropped off at the luggage desk outside the airport. Likely he had to take it all there himself.

And then to boot, apparently she lost her dentures at the desk.

The mood in the bus - and in me - instantly changes. Someone says "Not your fault; it is just life".  

If our tips all were a little more than usual, I would not be surprised.

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It is quite easy for me to look at how the world is impacting my life and make certain determinations about everything else going on around me.  I can get grumpy about the inconvenience of waiting and a perceived lack of service and make certain assumptions about the situation and the reasons why things are the way they are.

Only to find out, at least sometimes, that there is a backstory that should evoke not my criticism or anger but my compassion.

We read that Christ looked upon the crowds and had compassion for them as a sheep without a shepherd. How often do I have the same kind of compassion in not leaping to conclusions based on stories that I have concocted in my head, a narrative that has me as the main staring role?

The proud can only, ever, see the world through their own eyes. The humble have learned that, through compassion, they can see it through someone else's.

Saturday, October 25, 2025

October Sunrise

 


October sunrise
speaks of rain and falling leaves:
Autumn has arrived.

Friday, October 24, 2025

Book Review: Letters To Freya

 As you might remember from my Pre-Review of a month ago,  the book Letters to Freya was originally recommended to me via the book The Call by Os Guinness. The reference in Guinness' book was to the writer of the letters in the book, Count Helmuth James von Moltke, a great-grand nephew of the famous Prussian (and German) general  Helmuth von Moltke (The Elder)  and his nephew Helmuth von Moltke (The Younger), a German General of World War I.  Helmuth James was a lawyer by trade, not a military man, and became one of the major figures in the resistance to Hitler during World War II, leading a group called The Kreisau Circle, who discussed policy and prepared a series of papers about the policy Germany should take following its defeat in WW II (which they all seemed to believe would work out about as it did).


Over the time of von Molke's marriage to Freya, they wrote hundreds of letters to each other, letters that were carefully preserved by Freya in beehives to hide them from the Nazis.  The span of the letters in the book cover 22 August 1939 (just prior to the formal declaration of War by Germany on Poland) to 11 January 1945, written the day after his sentencing and just before his execution on 23 January 1945.

Over the scope of the years 1939 to 19 January 1944 (when he was arrested for being present at a party where National Socialism was criticized openly), he writes letters to his wife  (sometimes two a day!). They cover the gamut of his life:  his work at the Abwehr (German Army Intelligence) where he used his background in international and martial law to argue for the lives of prisoners of war and civilian prisoners (including those of Jewish descent), his trips abroad to France and Demark and Belgium and Norway and Poland and Turkey, where he worked to make contacts with both local resistance and the Allies (he was never very successful in this regard), and his living arrangements including the increasing pace of Allied bombing.

He also writes of seemingly very small things as well.  He is very engaged and interested in the agricultural goings on of his ancestral estate of Kreisau, asking Freya details about planting and yields and preparing for rationing and beehives.  He writes to her about their family, including their two sons.  He writes to her specifically to her, anticipating her visits or reflecting on how much he loves and misses her.

He also writes of his "work":  I do not know why, but it took me until mid-1943 to realize that he is writing about this work in the resistance.  He talks about many of the contact he has made, some familiar to us even today - Dohanyi, Canaris, Stauffenberg - and many who likely remain unknown to most of us today, some of whom survived and others who were executed as political prisoners and "traitors" to the regime.  He writes of discussions and arguing and documenting policies for what a post-war Germany might look like.

After 1944 and his arrest, his letters in this volume are much abridged, mostly due to the request of Freya who summarizes his time in prison, noting that there were still letters (although quite censored) but given the personal nature of them, were not included in the time of this volume (1990) and might be released after her death.  

In reading the letters, any number of things come across:  von Moltke's genuine humanity and kindness, his intellectual brilliance and courage (arguing against policies supported by the highest levels of Nazi government), his understated but religious convictions, his honestly in being overwhelmed at times but never truly being hopeless about the ultimate outcome.

In the last letter written to Freya, he ends with the following:

"Dear heart, my life is finished and I can say of myself:  He died in the fullness of years and life's experience.  This doesn't alter the fact that I would gladly go on living and that I would gladly accompany you further on this earth.  But then I would need a new task from God.  The task for which God made me is done.  If he has another task for me, we shall hear of it.  Therefore, by all means continue your efforts to save my life, if I survive this day.  Perhaps there is another task.

I'll stop, for there is nothing more to say.  I mentioned nobody you should greet or embrace for me; you know yourself who is meant.  All the texts we love are in my heart and in your heart.  But I end by saying to you by virtue of the treasure that spoke to me and filled this humble earthen vessel:

'The Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ
and the love of God and the fellowship
of the Holy Spirit be with you all.'

Amen, J."

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I have to confess that the German resistance to Hitler during World War II remains a fairly unknown subject to me.  I know elements of it - The White Rose Movement, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the 20 July 1944 plot - but probably like a great many in the West and of my generation and later, the assumption is often such movements were minimal at best.

Letters to Freya helped change that for me.

From the very early letters of this book, von Moltke is opposed to Hitler and the War.  Over the course of his non-arrest life - almost four years August 1939 to January 1944 - he works tirelessly and at great personal risk to push back where he can push back and begins to build a movement - a non-violent one, although it involved military officers - to oppose Hitler.

The names of those he meets with are many.  The editors of the letters do the kindness of identifying them, as well as giving their histories and fates.  A small number survived the war; most were imprisoned, tried before so-called People's Courts, and executed, sometimes up to the ending weeks of the war.

What comes through in his letters is a man of many interests and talents who is thrust into a situation that he did not expect, but does his duty as he sees fit under tremendously difficult circumstances (imagine the modern equivalent of convincing others to push back on a so-called Fuhrer Order from the very top in the modern world merely by force of personality), risking the disapproval of his superiors (and disapproval then meant much more than a sharply worded e-mail) in defense of captured enemy combatants, resistors, ordinary citizens.  He clearly wishes he were back on his beloved estate, thinking on agricultural matters and enjoying his wife and children, but understands that his calling in that time was to be somewhere else, pushing back against the darkness in the position that God had placed him.

Von Moltke was a man of non-violence, at one point in his final letters he notes "Just think how wonderfully God prepared this, his unworthy vessel.  At the very moment when there was danger that I might be drawn into active preparation of a putsch (Ed. note, the 20 July 1944 plot) - it was the evening of the 19th that Stauffenberg came to Peter - that I was taken away, so that I should be and remain free from all connection with the use of violence". 

He then goes on to relate everything else God did to prepare him for his hour in the courtroom:  giving him socialist leanings to remove him from suspicion as a Land owner of interests; humbling him "...as I have never been humbled before, so that I had to lose all pride, so that at last I understand my sinfulness after 38 years, so that I learn to beg for his forgiveness and trust to his mercy; putting him in prison with enough time so that his family can arrange their interests and his earthly thoughts; that he experienced the pain of parting and terror of death and then filling him with love and hope; that he talked with friends to resolve issues and friends escaped; that his case was arranged such that he bore the brunt of the court and not his friends, and that "...your husband is chosen, as a Protestant, to be above all attacked and condemned for his friendship with Catholics, and therefore he stands before Freisler (the presiding jurist of the trial) not as a Protestant, not as a Prussian, not as a German - all this was explicitly excluded in the trial... - But as a Christian and nothing else."

"For what a mighty task your husband was chosen:  all the trouble the Lord took with him, the infinite detours, the intricate zigzag curves, all suddenly find their explanation in one hour on the 10th of January 1945.  Everything acquires its meaning in retrospect, which was hidden. Mami and Papi, the brothers and sister, the little sons, Kreisau and its troubles, the work camps and the refusal to put out flags or belong to the Party or its organizations.  Curtis and the English trips, Adam and Peter and Carlo, it has all at last become comprehensible in a single hour. For this one hour the Lord took all that trouble (emphasis mine)."

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Letters to Freya is a number works rolled up into one. It is a love story between a man and his wife. It is a history about World War II as seen from the inside of both Germany and government apparatus.  It is a moral work about the art and practice of non-violent protest and building consensus. It is a book about what one tries to build knowing the bottom is falling out of the current paradigm.  It is a religious work about a man and his God and how he served Him.  It is an underground work about living through a sort of occupation.

It is a painfully honest story of a man and his failings and his moral courage.

Would I recommend this book? Without question.  Clocking in at 412 pages, it is perhaps a little long for those that do not enjoy long non-fictional works - but being broken as it is into individuals years and letters, it makes it much easier to read in short chunks.  Even with the helpful footnotes, one can become lost in the names and places.

But the work rewards the reader who sticks with it (or like me, is likely going to need to read it one more time).  Its ending -von Molke's ending - is both tragic and triumphant.  In the end, he wins the ultimate victory after having to pay the ultimate earthly price.  In 38 years, he arguably accomplished more than many do in twice that many years.

A great many people would believe they have moral courage and are resisting evil.  Von Moltke actual did it.  And for that alone, the book is worth your consideration.

Thursday, October 23, 2025

The Collapse CCIX: The Fourth Advent Candle

 21 December 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

Although it seems all too quick to me, we have reached the fourth Sunday of Advent.

Our advent wreath sat in the morning light, its two purple candles and pink candle partial burned with one remaining full purple candle present.

“The Angel candle” said Pompeia Paulina as she lit each one, starting with the earliest candle we had used and working her way around the wreath. It symbolizes love”.

Love, Lucilius.

I have to be honest with you that love, especially under the current circumstances, seems like a very strange word. Yes, of course in one way it matters more – one holds the ones that one loves closer in such circumstances (or in my own, finds them in the midst of such circumstances in order to hold them) – but it seems out of place.

If I think back to when post-apocalyptic was a fiction construct circa the 1950’s to 20XX (when it suddenly was no longer fiction), it was something that almost never appeared. Sure, inevitably (it being fiction and all) there was undoubtedly some sort of underlying love story or unrequited love interest (the hero dying just as they reached The Promised Land), but more often than not there was a great deal of fighting and surviving and traveling across ruined country.

Love – especially love for something or someone that was not specifically within your reach – was a pretty foreign fictional concept.

And yet, I look at a candle reminding me of Love, of a message of love brought by an angel, first to Mary, and then to shepherds in a field (joined by thousands of other angels). And am reminded that such an unconditional love does not change, no matter what our outwards circumstances.

God so loved the world, says the Apostle John, that He sent His only Son, that whoever shall believe in Him should not perish but have eternal life. He loved the world through the Western Collapse of Empire, He love the world through the Religious Wars, He loved the world through calamitous 20th Century that led us to here.

We all remain sinners in need of a Saviour, Lucilius, not matter what our outward circumstances.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: View From Above

 During our Street Art Tour, our guide took us up in one of the skyscrapers of Phnom Penh - partially to look at an art exhibit, but also partially to get a view of the city.


Phnom Penh, as you might recall, became the capitol of the Khmer Empire in A.D. 1432 following the fall of Angkor Wat.  It served as the capitol until A.D. 1497, when the capitol moved due to ongoing disputes. It was re-established as the capitol in A.D. 1866.


It sits at the confluence of the Tonle Sap and Mekong Rivers.




One of the art displays in the building.  That large picture...


...is made of individual sections of coloured pencil shavings.

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Food Tour III

 After the night market, we headed out again in our Tuk-Tuk.


Num Pang, the Cambodian equivalent of Banh Mi.  Delicious.


A variety of meat related dishes:






For dessert, we drove to what was essentially an older couple at the side of a rather busy road.  The old man was scraping out coconut meat from husks.  His wife would stuff them in a roll and pour sweetened coconut milk over them.  This may have been the best thing I had while I was there.


After our meal (we were quite full), one more after dinner drink.


Monday, October 20, 2025

Of Stuff And Three Questions

This past weekend I made my monthly trek back to The Ranch for a house check in and stopping in to various people. My Aunt continues to do well for someone who is undergoing chemo and almost died last year, which is encouraging (and honestly, a major reason for me to continue to go back).  I pulled down a couple of hanging signs The Ravishing Mrs. TB had indicated we should keep.  And stopped by to see Uisdean Ruadh.

Over an Angry Orchard Cider (pretty good stuff!), we chatted about this and that - one of the "this and that" things being, of course, the eventual sale of The Ranch and the high likelihood that the Cabin may no longer be for rent.  He has been working on alternatives and as we discussed those alternatives, he mentioned that he was in the process of organizing and in some cases getting rid of things like books which, although he enjoyed (and has a large collection of paperbacks dating to the 1960's from his father), he simply is not likely to get back to look at again.

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I have written before on the challenge that I have found and am finding with my relationship with "stuff" in my life, especially after relocating to a small current living arrangement.  1.5 years into that arrangement, I do not know how much "better" I have gotten with it.

Arguably I have managed to "slow down" the incoming amount of things, handy in an era where the cost of things continues to increase, and driven mostly by a combination of time (I really do not have the time of pick up more than I have going on now) and the space to put or do them in.  

But "not bringing more in" does not change the fact of "the amount of things I still currently have".

Part of this as a driving factor is simply the experience with my parents' house, where in the end we essentially had to outsource the getting rid of stuff (after we took what we wanted), partially due to the sheer overwhelming nature of the amount of stuff.  That is not something I would like my heirs to have to deal with.  The other thing - frustrating to me who likes a level of order in things - is simply that I do not like piles and stacks (almost as much as I loathe the idea of too many drawers or closets:  they are just places to put things out of the way to forget them).

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At some point, assuming all things remain equal and things do not completely fall apart economically, the apartment is a temporary place and we will have a more permanent home somewhere.  And hopefully that home will effectively be "the home" until such a time as I do not need one at all. I would dearly like that relocation to not be a "dumping all the things from here into there" without some kind of forethought as to what stays and what goes.

If the example of my elders is any indication, there is less and less need for "things" beyond the basics of living as one goes.  Things tend to remain because they either have nostalgia value or they are simply not thought of anymore.  My goal is to try to do something a little more than ridding myself of things via inertia.

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It occurs to me that it might be worth making a goal out of seeing how much I can unburden myself of in a year.  That is not a strong commitment, but it is something worth considering: what if I made a solid commitment to a combination of "Buy Nothing January" for the whole year (or as near as I could) and "Get Rid of as much as I can" over the same period of time?

There are only three questions needed:  Do I use it now?  Will I ever use it?

And the most challenging of all, Am I strong enough to let it go?

Sunday, October 19, 2025

A Year Of Humility (XIL): Depression

 This past week I have been severely out of sorts, with a depression that I have not experienced in some years.

It came on me as I left work for no reason that I could discern. It followed me through at the gym, which was a miserable affair of me doing the "work" I had committed to doing when I showed up, and then completely overcame me when I got home.  Dinner was a lazy affair of comfort food; I was in bed by 2000.

It might seem like an odd topic, humility and depression.  But I think there is value in admitting all of our emotions in the practice of humility. One of them is simply sometimes I get depressed.

Depression has certainly entered the mainstream a great deal more than when I first had to deal with it as a teenager. That is good in that it is both acceptable and okay to say "I am depressed".  I do wonder if it is also bad in the sense that, being something that is commonly batted about, we lose some of the urgency and poignancy that should come along with addressing it. It can become something that we simply go get a prescription for or sign on once a week for our virtual counseling appointment - not there is anything wrong with either of those; what I am concerned about is a familiarity that ultimately ignores the actual condition.

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One of the things that I have found comforting in my Monday night Men's group (my regular group, not the short-term one I am leading) is the fact that we are incredibly honest about our feelings.  That strikes me as a very unusual thing in the modern world: I am never likely to mention to coworkers that I am in a depression and quite possibly not to family or friends that I speak with occasionally (although my family undoubtedly knows).  It is only in this group that I somehow feel that I can discuss such things.

Why is that? I am not sure, really - in this case these are men that I have known for a little over a year and seen once a week only.  And yet there is a robustness in our conversations, an honesty, that makes such communications possible.

And humility, of course.  It takes a lot of humility in a modern culture that only pushes that things are always okay to be able to admit that they are not.

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The depression will pass - it always does of course, I have lived long enough to know that "now" is not "forever".  But the humility to admit that I have depression is something I have to remind myself to practice every day. 

After all, I have to remind myself that I am not the only one that does so and that some other person may need the example of someone humble enough to admit their depression to be able to admit their own.

Saturday, October 18, 2025

Life With A And J

One of the things I find myself very grateful for are A the Cat and J the Rabbit.


We have a daily routine now.  After I get up at 0500, I open the door where A the Cat it sitting outside, waiting for me.  We go to the alternative bedroom - really The Rabbit's Room, who am I kidding - and open the cage for J the Rabbit, who will hop out and head to the living room, where she hop around for the better part of an hour until breakfast time.


The same sort of thing happens when I get home from work:  A is standing at the door yowling for all he is worth when I come in.  He gets fed, then J gets her dinner and open cage door where she can run around more or less until it is time for bed.


As I have been more own my own of late than usual, I am grateful that they are here.  They certainly give me something to look forward to coming home to.


(J at her veterinary appointment yesterday for a check up and vaccination. She is in great health and the vet was very happy.)

 

Pets.  We do not really deserve them.

Friday, October 17, 2025

The Pumpkin Spice Season

 It would not be the season of Autumn with the Pumpkin Spice Guinea Pigs:


This is the sort of random silliness we are so desperately in need of.

Thursday, October 16, 2025

The Collapse CCVIII: Full Faith And Credit

 19 December 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

One of the practices Pompeia Paulina and I have been doing on a regular basis is a rotating cycle review of things. We go room by room, storage place by storage place. On the one hand it may seem a bit morbid – after all, we are counting down things like food and other supplies. On the other, it is fairly interesting what memories get randomly triggered by an item.

In this case, it was a silver dollar.

Not just any silver dollar: an 1879 Morgan Silver dollar, likely one of the first silver coins I came into. Its acquisition is burned into my brain.

It happened before the turn of the century, when I was a lowly college student working in my cousin’s convenience store. A kid came in – maybe 18, maybe not, who could tell – with a fistful of coins to buy a pack of cigarettes.

I was used to this: my cousin’s store was on the edge of the “appropriate” part of town, and we had more than our share of experience dealing with ragged bills, piles of pennies and nickels, and grubby food stamps (the first time in my rather innocent middle class life I had seen them). He asked for the cigarettes – likely Camels or Marlboros, that was what everyone smoked – and I started counting out the change.

And there it was: a big, fat, Morgan Silver dollar.

I had the wisdom not to raise a fuss about it, but definitely made sure that it was included in the pile of coins that went into the till. I gave him the cigarettes and shoved back the change. He pocketed it and left; I carefully removed the Silver dollar and replaced it with a paper one from my wallet.

It was in fine condition, a little discolored but not worn, quite likely from a relative’s coin stash that may or may not have known their collectible went up in smoke (as it were). And though I waited, no-one came back looking for it.

This was the first of many silver coins that I acquired over the years of working there and beyond, the results of careful attention paid to change. Over time I acquired a very small hoard, dollars from years past of women with torches walking and quarters and dimes and half dollars with mythical or historical figures on them. Some were worn, some were as good as the day they were coined.

That eventually ran out of course, as I got older and dealt with coins on a less frequent basis and silver coins became a commodity that were sought after; I do not believe I have seen a random silver coin in the last 25 years or more.

I held it there in my hand, feeling the solidity and the weight, watching the light catch the bas relief of the woman’s face. This coin was easily over 100 years old. It was minted, I found out once upon a time, in Philadelphia and was the least valuable of such coins, perhaps fetching 100 times its face value once upon a time. And now it sits here, in a pouch where it is easy to get to if we should need it. As if there was any need for it now.

I cannot eat this coin, Lucilius. I cannot plant it and grow something from it. The bees can make no use of it and the quail cannot nest in it. I could, I suppose, melt it down and make something else out of it. What though? A bullet? We have few werewolves in this part of the world. A piece of art? It is already a piece of art, something far more beautiful in its current form than I could craft myself.

I keep it, as I keep all of my coins, as a hedge against a day where things that are not of direct survival use will have value. If such a day will ever come.

They could be coins from the times of Vikings for all that it matters. Even then they would have no more true “value” than they do now, paperweights and historical markers of an era and economy long gone.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Food Tour II

 What is a tour without the exotic?  In this case, fried insects?





For the record, fried crickets taste like nuts.  Friend grasshoppers, not nearly as good - bitter aftertaste.



We also went to a Night Market.  All kinds of things were offered here.  It was the first time I had seen a wet market.



The fruit selection in Cambodia and Vietnam is a tropical fruit lovers dream.  Jack fruit, in this case.




Tuesday, October 14, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Food Tour I

 One of the things The Ravishing Mrs. TB likes to do when we are in a foreign country is take a local food tour. I have to admit that the idea has grown on me: besides being a good way to get out in a more localized way, it exposes us to food that we often will not get on the larger tour.  And so, the evening of the day of our Street Art Tour, we met up with a group and our same tour guide, got in a Tuk-Tuk, and ventured off.


A note:  I am having to recreate these via memory and a link on Cambodian Cuisine, so any inaccuracies are from me.

Cambodian Fried Spring Rolls:


Khmer Noodles.  Greens are served on a plate and added to taste or desire:



I believe these are Nom Pao, Cambodian Stuffed Buns.



A form of eggs, I think.  Placed into the lettuce leaves and eaten like a small taco.

Monday, October 13, 2025

Of Delivery Drivers And Artificial Intelligence

Every morning around 0600 as I take my morning walk, I pass the morning round of delivery vehicles.

They come in two types.  The first is the large, blocky van associated with the world's biggest online retailer, complete with beeping noise when parked and the high beam incandescents indicating an electric vehicle, their drivers in the blue and grey uniform. The other are the personal transports - cars, trucks - with the driver that may or may not wear a safety vest clearly delineating themselves as a delivery person, single package grasped in hand.

The same two groups will appear in the evenings as I make dinner:   added to these two groups are a third group, personal cars whose drivers are not safety vest clothed but are carrying boxes and bags of what are clearly food to doorways.

Even 5 years ago this was not a thing.  Now, it is as regular an occurrence as street lights going on and off.

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My work, along with likely hundreds (or even thousands) of other companies, is heavily pushing Artificial Intelligence (or AI).  When I say "heavily pushing", I mean a multi-week mandatory training regime to be done by the entire company. Progress is tracked.  Levels of in-person engagement are expected.  

The point of all of this is to bring Artificial Intelligence into our daily work.  The anticipated outcome is that we will all begin to use Artificial Intelligence to automate simple (or not so simple tasks) and create tools that allow us to focus our time on higher level activities (what these "higher level activities" are never clearly defined except in generic sorts of examples).  I am assuming that, for next year's goals, some level of Artificial Intelligence will be included: demonstrating using it in practical terms, creating a tool, automating tasks.

It was only in one of the later trainings that it was noted that those who learn to "adapt" will be the most successful in the new work place.

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The point of this discourse is not to argue the benefits or lack thereof for Artificial Intelligence; people far more educated and thoughtful are commenting on it.  My particular point is dwelling on what I see as two opposite points:  On one, an intensely manual process that has virtually no barriers to entry except the ability to drive and follow instructions on a phone; on the other, a process where automation is being heavily pushed as a way to make work more efficient.

That industries and companies will oversell the benefits of Artificial Intelligence goes without question in my mind:  if history has demonstrated anything, it is that companies will triple down on anything that promises to save money regardless of the long term ability of said thing to save money or even work effectively.  They will the initial results that they think they will get; the long term impacts - such as, for example, Artificial Intelligence not being the panacea for ever task - will manifest itself only after the people have been fired and the systems changed to accommodate Artificial Intelligence.

More importantly, what happens to the people who did those jobs?

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I cannot guess at the reasons people take delivery jobs.  For some, it is likely the job they can get.  For others, it is one of many they can use to piece together an income. But in either case, these jobs are predicated on an underlying principle:  people have money to spend that allows them to buy things that include the overhead for delivery.

In an economy which is in distress - be it from a collapse in markets or a mass series of layoffs - the first thing to go for many is non-essential spending.  Spending will concentrate down further and further into the basics - housing, food, the basics of living.  And with that spending drop, goes all sorts of other jobs.  

It strikes me that I am looking at an economic system that is eating itself from both ends, both the highly paid and technical side and the low end minimum wage side.  What emerges from that I can scarcely imagine - except I cannot imagine it will be good.

Sunday, October 12, 2025

A Year Of Humility (XL): Serving When Called

In what is almost a complete reversal of my normal operating procedure, I am leading a short-term small group at my local church.

There is almost nothing more anxiety inducing to an introvert than leading anything; the fact that I am a "manager" at work leads to its own sense of anxiety as I try my best to be completely non-managerial.  So the fact that I was suggested by my own small group leader for such a role is nothing short of either amazing or terrifying - or both.

In terms of commitment, it has a limited term:  7 weeks (really 6, as I was gone in Grand Canyon for 1 week).  There is a program in place so I do not have to come up with anything.  I just have to lead discussions for 1.5 hours a week.

It was a offer I almost passed up.

I have led groups in the past but arguably never felt I was very good at them, and with the move from Old Home to New Home my involvement in such activities almost completely ceased except as a member of groups.  It was clear - painfully clear, at least then - that there was no leadership role in my future.  And thus, when I was offered this opportunity, I almost passed it up again.

But I had a long thought about it first, not just buoyed by my small group leader's confidence in me, but by asking God about it - which is in itself always a risky proposition, because He might answer.

He did, in this instance - not in the Burning Bush sort of moment that Moses had or any sort of sky writing, but in the simple sense of a presence that indicated that this was something that I could - and should do.

But what if I fail at it, I threw back.  My record was not stellar.  What if I turned people away from Him instead of bringing them closer?

His response was simply "Whose group is it?"

My initial response was "Mine".  And then I thought about it - for a rather long time, until the response came to me "Yours".  He did not precisely smile at that point, but one could feel the sort of supernatural nod that comes when another party comes to the truth.

It is in fact His - and therefore, my excuse as to outcomes was invalid. I need only say yes and do my best; the results will be the results of His doing, not my fumblings.

Sometimes in our search for humility, we go to extraordinary lengths to demonstrate that we are humble and can learn lessons, even to the point of avoiding those things that we should be doing.  Being humble has its place, but humbly serving when called also has one.

In our search for humility, let us never avoid the ability to serve in any role because we are so "humble" we do not think we can do the job.  After all, it is not our job, but His.


Saturday, October 11, 2025

Thinking On Retirement

 Among our party that went on our hike last week, there was a gentleman from Out East that turned a year older in his early 70's on the trail. Besides being in great health (he had been going to the Grand Canyon for 5 decades, but thought that given muscle atrophy and balance issues this might be his last "Back Country" hike - but I doubt it), he had a small coterie of interests that he followed.

In chatting with him and his adventures (he is in the process of finishing up the Appalachian Trail), he comment that when he was in his early 60's he retired rather abruptly due to a work related issue.  "Best decision I ever made" was his comment, and 10 years on looking at him there was nothing that I could hear or see to disagree with it.

As some shared readers may also know, FOTB (Friend Of This Blog) Old AFSarge from Chant De Dupart has also spent the better part of a year learning to be retired. It has been an interesting journey as a third party reading his thoughts, especially about the falling out of and falling into rhythms.

Why this sudden reflection on retirement?  Going completely away for a week will do that to you.  There is something about standing in the grandeur of God's creation, surrounded by wind and silence, that makes one think "Next week I have to be back arguing about language in documents for things that likely will never be read again".

It can be a compelling thought, if you think about it long enough.

In one way, I have "reached" the spot in my career that is probably the spot I always belonged in:  the seasoned old guy who has seen almost every aspect of the industry, is the holder of some level of industry institutional knowledge, has no interest or illusions about moving up the corporate ladder, and in some ways is a sort of "Senior Stateman".  It is not quite the same as the group of guys drinking coffee every morning at the local café dispensing wisdom and weather complaints, but it is as likely as I am to get to it in the employed world.

And yet...and yet, every day I have to finish here on the computer writing, put aside the sad looks of A the Cat and J the Rabbit, and get ready to go do battle again at tasks not of my choosing.  An 8 hour chunk out of my day is pretty inconvenient at best.

Am I ready to retire?  Financially probably not, although I am going to press into our Financial Folks a little more directly when we meet with them in December - not just the "Yeah, it is a thing I would like to do" but "How soon could it happen?  What could I do now to make it happen sooner?"

I do not know that turning mid 70's on the trail is a specific goal of mine, but being in the condition to do it and having the time to get there is something that strikes me as more and more desirable.

Friday, October 10, 2025

Book Review: The Last Days of Socrates

One of the great issues in my mind about a general dearth of knowledge on and thoughts about philosophy is the fact that, on the whole, philosophy is presented in either isolated parts or large chunks of reading that manage to convey nothing of actual philosopher themselves.  Philosophers - at least the Ancient ones which I read - are best approached almost in a sort of "pop-star" approach.  

For example, if I had started reading Epictetus the Stoic Philosopher (A.D. c. 50 - 135) by starting with his Discourses instead of his much shorter and more pithy Enchiridion, I likely would have never been as taken with him as I am.  In the same vein, had I started with some other work of Lucius Annaeus Seneca ( 4 B.C. - A.D. 65) other than Letters from a Stoic, I would have never had the pleasure of coming to appreciate his works (nor would I have had a main character for The Collapse!).

Similarly, I would not have truly discovered Socrates had I not started with The Last Days of Socrates

(Author's photo of his edition - Apparently they issued a new cover.)

Socrates (c. 470 B.C. - 399 B.C.) is probably the best known of the Ancient Greek philosophers by name, even in our age.  A citizen of the Athenian Democracy, we actually do not know a great deal about him as he himself wrote nothing that is preserved.  What we do know is a short line of him from a play of the playwright Aristophanes (The Clouds) and what was written about him by two of his disciples, Plato and Xenophon, who themselves could not agree in their descriptions of him:  Xenophon tends to paint him in a light not nearly as interesting as that of Plato, who paints a picture of a man who is self-effacing, claims ignorance yet through his claims elucidates his opponent's beliefs and positions, is fearless in his criticism of all sides, and always claims to be seeking truth.

Plato presents Socrates through a series of dialogues, typically between Socrates and those who have brought him a question or whom somehow becomes engaged with.  In The Last Days of Socrates, we are given four of the dialogue, which represent the last part of Socrates' life when - in 399 B.C. - he was sentenced to die by a court in Athens for accusations of impiety.  Rather than try to escape, he accepted the laws of Athens and the judgment of the court and voluntarily consumed hemlock as his sentence.

The four dialogues - Euthryphro, The Apology, Crito, Phaedo - deal with Socrates' last days and are linked through his trial and impending death. In Euthryphro, he deals with the nature of impiety, something that will become relevant in his defense before the court in The Apology  In Crito, he walks through with an old friend why he feels himself bound by the laws to remain and accept the sentence of the court rather than escape.  And in Phaedo, we walk through Socrates' facing of death and his belief in the afterlife and the implementation of the sentence of death.

At 180 pages (plus notes), the book is a short, solid, and reasonable introduction to Plato and Socrates.  Some quotes from the various dialogues:

"The truth of the matter is this, gentlemen,.  Where a man has once taken his stand, either because it seems best to him or in obedience to his orders, there I believe he is bound to remain and face the danger, taking no account of death or anything else before dishonor." - The Apology

"No man on earth who conscientiously opposes either you or any other organized democracy, and flatly prevents a great many wrongs and illegalities from taking place in the state to which he belongs, can possibly escape with his life.  The true champion of justice, if he intends to survive even a short time, must necessarily confine himself to private life and leave politics behind." - The Apology

"Well, really Crito, it would hardly be suitable for a man of my age to resent having to die." - Crito

"I only wish that ordinary people had an unlimited capacity for doing harm; then they might have an unlimited power for doing good; which would be a splendid thing, if it were so.  Actually, they have neither.  They cannot make a man wise or stupid; they simply act at random." - Crito

"In that case, my dear fellow, what we ought to consider is not so much what people in general will say about us but how we stand with the expert in right and wrong, the one authority, who represents actual truth."  - Crito

"No, you must keep up your spirits and say that it is only my body you are burying; and you can bury it as you please, in whatever way you think proper. - Phaedo

If you are looking to find an introduction to Greek Philosophy or a simply meet a fascinating individual (whether he is as he was or partly imagined), I cannot imagine a better volume to start with.  

Thursday, October 09, 2025

The Collapse CCVII: Death And Mending Fences

 16 December 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

We were startled this morning by a knock at our door. Imagine my surprise to find one of our Erstwhile neighbors on my doorstep. His hands were plainly in view, breath steaming away from the pulled up edges of the jean rancher jacket into the crisp and cloud free morning air.

“There has been a death” he said flatly.

I nodded back. I had been expecting something like this to start sooner or later.

In a few minutes I was out with him, trudging back through the snow on a path beaten down by his coming. Pompeia Paulina I had sent off with the snowshoes to get Young Xerxes and whomever else he could rouse in short order. The walk itself was silent, the crunch of boots on snow, breaths hissed in and out like steam engines.

We wound our way through the streets of Birch, existing paths more clearly laid out in the midst of the snow – but even with that, the lifting and setting of feet, the brushing through of those holes as they merged together into a path...I hate the snow at times, Lucilius, for all that I moved here willingly.

By the time we arrived at the house – a house I recognized a little too well, that of Terentia, the wife of the man shot by Cataline in self defense– a small crowd had gathered, both of our Erstwhile neighbors as well as Young Xerxes and a few of his volunteers. I pushed through the circle, as much as through assuming I could do so as any moral authority I might still hold with everyone here: the last thing that was needed was a fight in the snow.

Inside, a smaller group was there. I recognized some of Terentia’s family and The Fashionable Woman from the trial. They were weeping, but stopped long enough to give me a cold stare as I went by through the hall into a bedroom.

There, in bed, was Terentia.

Death had found her, it seemed, at night: she lay under covers, one eye closed and the other one bolt open looking up the ceiling. I forced myself to check her with a touch (How much I hate the thought of touching the dead, Lucilius): cold and unyielding. Whatever had happened – my guess would be some kind of heart attack; I had seen similar cases long ago – it had happened some hours ago.

The man I remembered as her son came in. We nodded at each other, then looked at his mother.

“Thoughts?” he quietly said.

“Likely a heart attack or some such thing” I responded. “It was quick.” We stood in silence for moments longer, the wails of the mourners filling the background.

I looked straight at him. “Any particular reason you called for me?”

He stared straight back. “Mostly to let you know it happened and make clear – to you, to me, to everyone – that it was a natural death, not something that was contrived or carried out. Things are already tense enough.”

I nodded back. “Will you need anything from me, or us?”

He shook his head. “No. We can bury our own dead.”

We stood there in silence together for a few more minutes. “My condolences” I said as I started to turn to leave.

“You know” he said as I started to trail from the room, “she never blamed you in the end. Although she refused to really confront the truth about my father, she eventually got over you. She was just too proud to tell you so.”

I turned to look back at him and then, on a whim, offered him my right hand, which he took. “Sometimes we can all be too proud to take the first step”, I responded.

The trip back to The Cabin was quiet, Pompeia Paulina giving me the space to think through what I had seen. As Young Xerxes and Statiera peeled off to go back home, I suggested perhaps he and a couple of his friends offer to help with relocation of the body.

It is never too late, Lucilius, to try to mend fences.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca