I am coming off what has not felt like the best of weeks.
For the first time that I can remember in at least four years, I came down with some version of whatever was going around - not The Plague 2.0, but rather some kind of combination of sinus infection and general lack of energy. To put it in the vernacular, I felt cruddy.
It really hit me Tuesday; unfortunately (or fortunately) for me, my car experienced an "issue" (which I originally thought was electrical but thankfully it was not; less thankfully it became a brake job) and thus I was forced to (or able to) work from home on Tuesday, although by the end of the day I was wiped out. The car was delayed to Wednesday, so I had another day in which I felt slightly better.
Thursday I had to make an appearance and managed to make it through the day but ended up not going to The Ravishing Mrs. TB's Christmas party and went to bed early. Friday was my scheduled work from home day; I felt the best I had all week but my voice has completely bailed on me; I sound like a 14 year old teenager.
To be frank, this has been incredibly frustrating.
Feeling bad - certainly I have felt bad before. Feeling drained and without energy - that, I despise.
It honestly brought back feelings from the hike to Mt. Goddard this Summer (here and here) where, due to altitude sickness, I was also deprived of energy. I do not know how much of my feeling bad (mentally, at least) was due to that and how much of it was due to bad memories, but it was miserable both on the physical and mental level.
I write this post Friday evening and, other than the above referenced warbling vocal chords, I feel pretty good.
The bigger question is, what am I supposed to learn from this.
There is of course the obvious lesson: avoid sick people. As I am in the public a lot more now with general work and Produce (A)Isle, that is a lot more difficult.
There is also the lesson of be sure to get more sleep. Tempting, but I can only control part of my sleep in when I lay down and wake up. For the rest, I am somewhat at the beck and call of factors beyond my conscious control.
Stress? Well, that might have something to it. There has been a lot of stress from multiple points over the last few months. Stress leads to decreased immunity over time if the stress is maintained.
So maybe that is something to think about. Because I really do hate feeling this way.