Part of me really - REALLY - wants to write about current events that suggest that the country, as whole, is pretty much politics. But that is politics, which we do not do here. Another part of me wants to write about what appears to be the complete and total moral collapse that seems to have engulfed Western civilization to the point that I do not think that it can be come back from - but again, that seems to border on politics.
And then I realized that really, all of the outside angst I am feeling is really more indicative of my inside angst.
I am feeling cast adrift, caught between the reality that I live in and the reality that I would like to live in - only to discover that the greater reality seems to be completely unraveling. What good is it if you are good at a job in an industry that failing, or even a society that is failing? What good is getting halfway to the life you want to live only to have everything around you dissolve? It is as if you were trying to drive halfway across the country only to run out of gas in the middle of New Mexico with no town or car around: you are stuck.
Societies, just like economies, are built on an array of almost invisible relationships that ultimately reside in trust and faith in others and circumstances. Without this faith and trust that a certain cause and effect exists in social affairs, people have no reason to continue to invest in them. If crime is ultimately not punished, why should one approach the authorities or report the crime - or on a broader level, why pay for the taxes that support the government that is not doing their job anyway? It is as if I can see the the strands unraveling before my eyes even as I am powerless to stop it - and am running out of time to do what needs doing before something serious collapses.
It is a bit selfish, I confess, to be more worried about me and mine rather than the greater masses out there. But I am exactly as all I see: my own trust and faith in this society and civilization has been unraveled, almost to the point where collapse is viewed not so much with terror or anger but rather as something which simply needs to happen so we can all move on to the next phase.
And so I have come to view current events not so much as omens of worse to come but rather as evidence that things are simply crumbling - perhaps a little more quickly than anticipated, but collapsing none the less. We are not surprised that the waves destroy the sand castle, only that it does not destroy the castle sooner.