We are in contract.
The buyer that made the original low offer last year came back with our counteroffer price. It is, over all, the contract that we were asking for. Contingencies should fall off this week; closure should be sometime near the end of April.
The fact that - up to the time we received the offer - I had only booked trips through April - is not lost on me.
Kindly enough, The Ravishing Mrs. TB made a trip back with me this past weekend to review things and take a look at what we are keeping to size up a storage locker.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, I have very mixed feelings about the whole matter.
If anything, the realism of the past two years is enough to convince me - or really any sane person - that this "divided attention" scheme does not work. As The Ravishing Mrs. TB pointed out, home maintenance and being a landlord are two of my least favorite things, and both are things that - over the past two years (five years, really) I have had to practice to some extent. And it is not as if we are even really "there" anymore: the house is completely empty, and my visits are pretty much to see that we have no new leaks or critter issues.
There is certainly no sense of "living there", the illusion I granted myself from 2020-2023 when I could spend a week there at at time.
On the other hand, of course, it remains as beautiful and rooted in my family history as ever.
What happens next? Well, we still have some equipment to sell and a barn to empty (via estate sale or mass "come and take it"; there is almost nothing I can store and/or use at this point) and our own items to store. The Cowoby and Young Cowboy will move their things off the property, Uisdean Ruadh will move to his next home. By my last trip in mid-April, I anticipate there will literally be nothing for me to do except walk an empty house, cabin and barn for a check, walk the property one last time, see my Aunt and Uncle, and turn in the keys.
And after that? I told The Ravishing Mrs. TB this was my "biggest" thing: I simply cannot imagine an "after that" at this point. Yes, there will not be as many trips and yes, the concern of getting a phone call for an unexpected issue or repair will be gone, but so will what for many years I had thought my future would be.
That was okay, she suggested. For now, perhaps simply being done for a bit will be enough.
That was okay, she suggested. For now, perhaps simply being done for a bit will be enough.
ReplyDeleteA wise woman you married. She understands you well enough.
Letting go is so final, but it's as the scripture says
1 Corinthians 13:11, which states, "When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
Context of the Verse
This verse is part of a larger passage in 1 Corinthians 13, often referred to as the "Love Chapter." The Apostle Paul uses this analogy to illustrate the difference between childish and mature understanding, particularly in the context of spiritual gifts and love.
Let the grief pass as such events do generate grief. A HT to Herberts Dune Mind Killer poem.