Saturday, June 14, 2025

On Writing


This past week I completed a 20+odd year journey by finishing The Trivium:


Originally written in A.D. 1937 by Sister Miriam Joseph C.S.C, Ph.D., it contains within its 280-odd pages a complete introduction to a classical education, the sort of education that 150 years ago was likely de rigeur for the student but which now is reserved for post-secondary education and even then only for a very small group of majors.  It has a complete introduction to the concepts of Logic, Grammar and Rhetoric as had been practiced since Classical Greek times until the mid-20th Century.  Perhaps not surprisingly, I cannot recommend it enough.

I can hear what you are thinking:  "TB, you read anywhere between 80 and 120 books a year.  How is it that it took you two decades to finish a book - and how do you know that it took that long?"

The answer to the second question is simply I remember this book because this was the first online order that I and my mother did together, to show her how easy it was to make an online order.  The answer to the first is that between the nature of the material (which I did not want to rush) and the reverence for this particular book because of its history, it was always something I was going to do "someday".  Until someday arrived in the form of a move halfway across the country.

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In the very last chapter of the book the authoress discuss "Composition and Reading".  The "Composition" portion consists mostly information about poetry and metrical rhyme (much of which I had forgotten; we are far poorer for an educational system that is only STEM and "modern day" based) with a very small section at the end about all other kinds of writing.  Within that very small section, she discusses the Essay with this brief introduction:  "An essay can be broadly defined as a short prose work on a single topic."

A light went on for me.  That is what you write, the light said.  You are an essayist.

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Writing - this blog, journaling, even trying my hand at longer works - has been something which, over time, seems to have developed almost accidentally into how I write.  Longer-term readers may recall a time when I agonized over my "voice" as a writer as the favorite writers I have all have one, something so recognizable that in reading their works, you know that it is "theirs".  I no longer have that particular concern:  I write the way I do now, a combination of practice and repetition and what has become an online presence where I am perhaps in some ways more "myself" than I am in the real world.

One of the goals I set for myself is to be "as honest as I can be".  That may sound like prevarication to some, an easy way out when I do not wish to address a topic. I have never interpreted it that way at all; instead, I write to be as honest as I can be about myself and my life as I cannot speak fully or credibly for the lives of others: those are their stories to tell.  And while I may tell some things I may not tell everything; in this I use the model of Rod Dreher, who steadfastly has refused to write about his divorce by simply saying that he had an online outlet and his ex-wife did not and therefore it was wrong to write about something where the individual was not involved nor had the ability to defend themselves.

It was in this combination of the "Aha" moment and reflecting on my style that the Anais Nin quote struck me.

Writing is, in a sense, "easy" for me.  I have kept a journal for almost forty years; writing about my feelings and thoughts freely is something that I have come to do naturally.  My ability to speak the same is not nearly so well developed.  Call it a sense of self consciousness, call it embarrassment, call it a reluctance to confront things in the moment:  I am far more verbose on the page than I ever am in real life.

Can I speak?  Certainly?  Do I have the talent of being the proverbial Raconteur, spinning a yarn that entertains and educates?  I do, and have often used it to effect in my career.  But it is not my preferred communication tool.  That is performing; writing is communication.

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Writing over the past few months has been a challenge, compounded by a new schedule and settling in to a new location (still) and in a way, finding things to write about.  My life is in flux in a way that I had not anticipated and to be frank, sometimes I find my writing to be far more dead than I would like it to be or repetitious in form and scope.  Some of that is how I have chosen to structure this blog in terms of days; some of that is simply the period I find myself in.

But realizing that I have a both a voice/style and a preferred presentation of writing - an essay - has been a relieving factor.  One, it simply confirms that which I have come to do and in that sense - in my own mind - makes it "acceptable"; there is not necessarily a need to "find" a new or novel thing to try except as a writing experiment.  Two, it means that within that form, the fact that I write as I do - "as honest as I can be" - comports with the idea that a writer writes less those things that they can say rather than the things they cannot say.

It makes me laugh - a bit - it took me over twenty years to find that single line in a book I owned all that time. On the other hand, it makes me smile to realize that, probably to my mother, she has a smile on her face now knowing that the book she bought for me had that line.

18 comments:

  1. "It makes me laugh - a bit - it took me over twenty years to find that single line in a book I owned all that time."

    Something profound in this.

    And that your mother would think so too.

    I have been thinking about what wrtiting means and if I am actually a writer. Your post hits home.

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    1. Sandi, one of the great joys of reading books a second or third time if you own them is that, if you underline and/or make notes in them, you get the pleasure of meeting your previous self in them - seeing what struck you at a time, or what you thought was important. This was like that, except happening for the first time reading a book.

      Many years ago, one book I had on writing suggested the following analysis for being a writer: Do you believe yourself to be a writer? If yes, you are a writer - even if you have not published anything yet. Maybe not a good writer and probably not a published writer, but those are separate from the idea of being a writer. Like many things, being a writer is a thing we are, not just a thing we do.

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  2. Nylon126:05 AM

    Well, sometimes a journey takes an hour, sometimes a generation. There's a lot that I can't say so.....thanks for this blog TB.

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    1. Nylon12, this is - in that sense - the longest book I ever read.

      To the extent that this blog has brought anything of use to your life, you are more than welcome. Thanks for being a regular reader and commenter. Writers like to be read; it makes them feel better if they know people are reading.

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    2. Nylon123:05 PM

      There has been lots of "use" that I received from reading this blog TB, glad I am you continue to carry this struggle on. BTW....local news stations have non-stop coverage of the political assassinations here not far from me, shooter still being sought.......:(

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    3. Aww. Thanks Nylon12!

      I did see the news yesterday in transit. We are, at least in my opinion, entering some very troubled times.

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  3. Anonymous10:14 AM

    essay: "to try"

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  4. I always enjoy your writing as you are relatable to my own life. I feel you are somewhat of an introvert in an extrovert world, as I am. But of all your writing, I seriously miss your The Collapse segments. These are good, well developed characters that make me think "what would I have done in that situation". Hoping to hear more from them. Julia

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    1. Anonymous12:02 PM

      +1

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    2. Julia - Thank you very much (he writes, blushing). I agree with your assessment of an "Introvert in an Extrovert" world - I come home every day and am quiet after the exhausting (for me) effort of being "on" all day at work.

      Thanks for your kind words about The Collapse as well. Honestly, I have reached some uncomfortable portions of human nature - but you are right; Seneca would push on if he were in my position.

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    3. Anon - Thank you very much.

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  5. I won't ask any questions. I'm fairly certain that I have books that I purchased more than two decades ago that I still haven't got around to reading. Changing tastes and changing times. I'm pretty certain if I couldn't read another book for the rest of my life, other than what I currently have in the house, I still have plenty of reading material to live out my life.

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    1. Ed, I think this is the longest "aged" book, although I suspect there may be lesser ones (although I really do try to read every book I buy).

      I have been trying to "foreswear" major book purchases for the rest of the year as I am a bit short on shelf space and have made it through my purchase list. Yet sure enough, every time I walk into a used book store, something seems to find its way home with me.

      I am trying to make a project of re-reading my owned books over the next few years. At this point I have probably forgotten what is in a great many of them specifically, so it will be just like reading them again for the first time!

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  6. Now that looks like a book I would be interested in. I was first introduced to the classical method of education when we homeschooled. It was a popular method with homeschoolers with lots of relevant teaching resources. (I had already started another path, however, and stuck with that).

    I would say "essayist" is a good way to describe you, TB. Good for you for sticking with the book, no matter how long it took!

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    1. Leigh, I cannot recommend the book enough. It was the educational foundation I have read about for years. Even for me now, there is still much to be gained. I am thinking I need to do a greater plunge into logic and reason.

      It might seem odd that "finding" a category makes me so happy. It just settles things in my mind (and explains why some of my favorite Agricultural authors - Logdon, Berry, Fukuoka) really are my favorites: they are essayists.

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    2. I just wanted to say that I obtained a copy of The Trivium and am finding it an extremely interesting book. I wish I'd read it when I first started homeschooling.

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    3. Leigh, I am so genuinely pleased I could introduce this work to you.

      There is easily a year of solid teaching in this book. It is a shame that this sort of thing scarcely seems to be used as a resource anymore, let alone as a main text.

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