Friday, December 29, 2017

The One Thing I Wish I Had Done In 2017....

What is the one thing I wish I had done in 2017 that I did not do?

That is a hard one.  I really did a great deal this year.  Competed in a number of Highland Games.  Ran two road races.  PR'ed my weights.  Got to go to California (twice).  Saw my job and job responsibilities completely expand 100 fold.

What would it be?  Honestly, I think that my relationship with God did not grow as it probably should have this year.

What would that have looked like?  Great question, to which I do not have a satisfactory answer.  I would like to think it would mean I would feel "The Presence of God" more in my life and see God actively working in my life more than I feel like I do.

Mind you, "feeling" The Presence of God is a fairly ill- defined term.  Plenty of perfectly effective and good Christians through the years have not, and yet they did His work anyway.  But I have always (perhaps secretly) looked at those that seem to have that feeling with a sort of longing.  What must that be like?  How would it feel to really know that God was right there?  (Yes, I know that He is, but it is something I almost never sense).

I do not know if there is something that I can do to make that more real.  I do not think it is the sort of thing that you can force.  But that would have been the one thing, the crowning achievement, on what was a pretty good year.

2 comments:

ShallNOTBeInfringed Original said...

The very obvious fact that you long not just feel closer, but to be closer to God, is what will put you there. All good Christians have that desire to be closer to Him. And because of that desire and His infinite mercy and grace you will be. So praise God, you are one of His.

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

Thanks SNBIO. I appreciate it - although I still feel as far away as ever (although to be fair, reading the journal of David Brained, he felt the same way - and did far more than I will ever do).