As part of the concept of "Turning Pro", I have been making more of a sustained effort to write. I originally started work on more of a longer manuscript but frankly, it feels dead to me at this point. I will try, but after 10 books it simply feels empty to me.
Short stories, on the other hand, have suddenly been presenting themselves.
The one I have been working through currently is something along the lines of having the opportunity to go back and change one thing in one's life - a single decision, perhaps not the biggest or most important to the world, but the one that would internally bring one the most peace and change.
Which makes one think, of course: Given the chance, what would one undo?
It is the stuff of movies and fiction of course: the businessman who wonders what his life would have been like if he had not concentrated on business, the women who wonders being with the man she wanted to be with (instead of the one she chose), the decision made that completely remakes history. But I would argue there is a second category of "do overs": the ones that matter to no-one but ourselves.
These are not the things that would change the scope or course of one's life - like choosing a different spouse or a different career path or not moving or moving - but rather a small decision that would change outlook rather than situation. Think Marty McFly's father in "Back To The Future" without the romance portion but with the simple change in the belief in self (which really made the rest of it possible).
I know my thing, of course - it is actually the point of the story, carefully hidden away in the midst of a short story plot (okay, less hidden away in the story - but it really happened). It is not like the major sorts of things I would like to change (yes, I have a list of those as well) - but it is the one thing that, could I go back and change it, would bring me a great deal of psychic relief.
If you had a thing you would change - a small thing or change that really would only be visible to you - what would it be?