Choices or Change. This thought simmered in my thoughts all day after I wrote it.
Am I lover of change? If you looked at my history, you would say yes. My average stay at a job since my first job is approximately 24 months. Prior to (more or less) the last two jobs, I regular switched jobs. And my interests? They wander from here to there, as a butterfly landing and then flying off. My bookshelves, were you to look at them, would seem a disorganized collection of subjects and topics - reflecting my interests and their morphing. Yet ironically, I would not define myself as someone who likes or enjoys change. In many other ways I prefer the known to the unknown, the scheduled to the free fall, the older to the newer.
If I love change, why? This is probably the real question worth asking. Figure out why I love change so much and that will tell me why I do what I do, why I am unhappy with what I am unhappy with, and how to figure my way out.
Why understand it? Because if not, I begin to start trying changes for the sake of changes. I start looking at jobs in locations I probably should not. I suddenly start coming up with new lines of study when I barely have time for the lines of study that I am currently undertaking. In other words if it is not channeled, it begins to become destructive.
Which is a little bit frightening. Because if I am doing it just to do it, it is an instinctual thing which is very powerful indeed. Power can be good of course when it is properly managed - when not, it becomes a very destructive element.
Why then do I love change? Or perhaps the better question is, Why then do I feel I must have change?
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