I cannot escape the fact that themes keep piling themselves into my life like advertisements on a radio that simply continue to repeat until you feel like you have to buy the product to make them stop.
I do not know how "messaging" (if that is what we shall call it) works in other's lives. How does one know when a change needs to be made? How does one sense that life is asking one to change course or direction, be it of a lifestyle or living or simply a pattern of thought?
Mine, apparently, comes through the written word.
It has been a slow process, perhaps two years or more (corresponding, as it turns out, to my relocation to New Home 2.0). It has largely involved books, but quotes have participated also, as well as conversations with individuals.
It is that moment where the ground is shifting under your feet and you have no other option except to ride it like a surfer on a wave.
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I comprehend that I am speaking a bit riddles. Mostly that is due to the fact that I am trying to understand the themes and the questions themselves. What they are - or at least my best guess at them - has migrated from notes to journaling to a Word document (so I can see everything in black and white). Even with all of that, I am not sure that the thing is completely baked, as it were.
There is that nagging feeling that out there, a few things remain to fall into place.
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I would be lying if I said I was not approaching this with trepidation - mostly because of the fact that I know that this is going to end of pushing me way outside of the quiet comfort zone that I have spent years constructing for myself.
But I do not really know that I have a choice, trepidation or not. We can only ignore things so long as we choose not to engage with them or they are not apparent to us; once they reveal themselves and begin to eat away at the framework, we have no choice but to work to reconstruct things based on the new reality.
One wonders if the incipient butterfly feels fear as it prepares to break through the chrysalis.
Wisdom is Faith.
ReplyDeleteFind comfort in waiting.
Faith, then boldness.
Refusing to act is fear.
Thank you very much, Anon. Wise words.
DeleteStill too much brain fog from whatever hit me last weekend, anti-biotics starting to help but....... do or do not, there is no try. Sorry TB the best I can do.
ReplyDeleteNylon12 - Rest up and get better, friend!
DeleteYup, No way through it except through it.
I usually know I need a change in course but I never seem to have the courage to make it until life comes along and changes it for me. After I am on my new course though, I always realize that I should have changed courses much sooner. Not sure any of that leads to advice other than you are probably correct and should change course sooner rather than on life to make the change for you.
ReplyDeleteEd, I fear I find myself it in the same position. And to be clear, the feeling of almost being driven to it becomes more and more real every day.
DeleteWhen I see the same message twice, I believe God is raising his voice. Repetition means a spanking is on the way if I don't reorient. A traffic ticket was a shout. At least to me.
ReplyDeleteMaybe that is a better way to see it. You are reorienting the map to more accurately align with the landmarks. So you won't be wandering, but actually moving from A to B, as God intended. Your own personal pillar of fire and cloud. How much better to follow quickly by faith, instead of dying in a pointless desert walk about. Might even save 40 years of misery .. 🤔
STxAR sends ...
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