Monday, September 22, 2025

Our Deepest Vocation



The week or so since I posted Deeply Troubled has not been a particularly promising one.  It has become, if anything, rather worse - so much worse, in fact, that I have elected to give up almost all forms of news and social media, both for my own sanity as well to maintain a consistency of commitment that I have given to others:  If I truly am not going to discuss and follow the news, then I need to avoid surreptitiously doing it on the side - if they will honour my ask, I too need to honor my own commitment.

On the bright side, my stress level has dropped, my phone battery lasts longer, and I am not doing all the nervous ticks that I do on the side when I am stressed.

That does not change the fact, however, that I need to model something different.

I am aware that "modeling" may not seem like the greatest need.  And yet, every day I become even more convinced that one of the major issues we face is that there remains a dearth of people - on all sides of the issue - that can model the sort of behaviour that we wish to see in the world.

As a Christian, of course, I can reasonably only be expected to reflect the Christian experience.  And that is where the above quote from Henri Nouwen comes in.

Every Christian has, in some way, caught glimpses of God.  Some of them are equivalent of towering thunderheads and majestic sunsets, others as quiet and innocuous as rainfall or a bumble bee on a flower.  But all, in some way, have seen these glimpses.

The world desperately needs this glimpses.

I am fortunate, if that is the world to use:  I have a confidence that at times is completely unexplainable to someone who does not believe - not all the time of course, and usually a very restrained confidence (I cannot shake who I am at my core). And part of that is fueled by those glimpses of God that I have had and, in turn, can live out in my life.

I have been the beneficiary of God's love in the love and kindness of others.  I have been the beneficiary of God's goodness in the fact I have always had a roof over my head and food on my table.  I have been the beneficiary of God's grace through the forgiveness of others.

I have been given so much.  It is my job to share it with the world as best I can.

That is not just my job, I would argue.  It is the job of every Christian.  It is what the world desperately needs at this moment, more than any of the other things that are filling the news at the moment.

No matter what else is going on, the world still needs God.  To the extent that Christians, each in their own way, reveal those glimpses of Him to the world, we fulfill the deepest calling of every Christian:  To make God known.

Sunday, September 21, 2025

A Year Of Humility (XXXVII): The Salt Of Humility


 Salt is a pretty useful thing.

The history of salt and the virtues thereof have been written on by better minds than I (there is a whole book by Mark Kurlansky:  Salt:  A World History).  And we know what salt does: it preserves, it adds flavour.

I take Isaac of Syria to mean the same thing for humility: it preserves virtue, it brings "flavour" to the virtue by making it fresh and piquant.  The path to it, he suggests, is not nearly as "easy" as mining salt or pulling out of dried beds:  it involves self-reflection, recognition of where we miss the mark, and judging ourselves accordingly.  But, he suggests, the benefits far outweigh the pain of getting there.

But the great thing about gathering the salt of humility?  We need neither mine or seabed; we can simply start by looking in the mirror and seeing ourselves as we truly are - and then changing.

Saturday, September 20, 2025

A Walk In The Dark

For most of my life, I have been a walker in the darkness.


I come by this naturally: I have been walking around or home in the dark since middle school likely.  It was a different time of course; such things were hardly considered remarkable in the town I grew up in.  Middle school turned into high school and still I walked.  There were long evenings spent with Uisdean Ruadh and The Director and others as we walked down and around the lanes and parks of our neighborhoods, sometimes walking the railroad tracks the three miles that it took to get to my hometown from my house and back again.


I walk in the mornings as well, but mornings are different.  They are far busier, with runners and walkers and dog walkers out in force. It is not that anything is necessarily wrong with that - it is just that it creates a different vibe.


The evenings, perhaps unsurprisingly, are different:  anytime after 2000 it is only the occasional dog walker and unusual nerd like myself that is out for a stroll.


Things are remarkably quieter as well:  most folks are inside their homes (perhaps use the word "Sensible" here), and most transportation has stopped.  Only the occasional car goes by:  delivery trucks, commuters, garbage trucks - all are gone home for the night.


The biggest difference is sound is simply that there are no birds.  Occasionally in New Home I would hear an owl out on the prowl.  Not here in New Home 2.0 though.  Only the background of the local insect life and frogs hoping for a little night life fill the evening air.


These dark walks were - and are - for me a time of talk and thinking.  Over the years of strolling, be they in person or on the phone with a friend, the great issues of the day and the small ones as well were hashed out - if not to conclusion, at least to an expression of opinions.


Over the years I have walked on roads, lanes, paths, high school tracks, sidewalks, dirt roads.  Different places we have lived had had different features.  The first neighborhood we lived in at New Home had an older mix of homes with older trees and interesting street designs.  The second place we live - where we own our home - is a newer neighborhood.  The trees are not so tall and the new homes behind our house - just rows of sidewalks and yards.


New Home 2.0, as you can hopefully see, is far more interesting.


For years I pictured myself more a creature of the dark than the day - something that a job that starts early tends to wreak havoc with.  I can barely stay up beyond 2200 on a good day anymore; that alarm comes far too early.


Yet I have found that if I fail to walk, it has an impact - on my ability to sleep, on my weight, on my mental health.  I do better if I walk in the dark.


So here is to the walkers in the dark, those hardy souls that inhabit the twilight and early night where the stars and lights shine like the lanterns of the Fairy lands, the sounds are mostly natural, and the only monologues or dialogues are those that you bring with you.


 

Friday, September 19, 2025

Book Review: How To Grow Grain On The Homestead

 (Author's Note:  I have been sufficiently please with the outcome of my series of Essentialism and the kind comments of you, my readers, on that particular idea of a deep dive into a particular book, that I am planning to do it again.  I have a couple of books I am thinking of; I ask for your patience as I work through the next steps.)

The first year I grew grain was in 2005.

It was, as I recall, a combination of Winter Wheat, Emmer Wheat, Jet Barley, and Oats.  The Oats did not take.  Everything else did, and my interest in grain growing was born.  I believe that every year since then, I have at least tried to grow some kind of grain, no matter what my success rate.

Imagine my pleasure to find, in Permies crowdfund benefit package, a new book on growing grain:


Beyond sharing her experiences along with her husband Dan on their blog Five Acres & A Dream, Leigh is an FOTB (Friend Of This Blog) whose comments are regular and always thoughtful.  

As a result, this is probably not going to be a completely neutral review.

This book is a part of a smaller set of volumes which Leigh has written for specific items of the homestead (her book on Ginger, for example, is excellent as well).  I would also be remiss in mentioning that she also has "regular" books (Five Acres & A Dream - The Book and The Sequel).

I will start with the punch line first:  if you are looking for a book to ease you into what I consider the high satisfying world of growing grain, this is a great place to start.

The book covers all the basic questions, supplemented by examples from Leigh and Dan's experience:

- Why you should grow grain
- The basic steps of growing grain:  planting, harvesting, threshing, winnowing. The threshing part is especially interesting, as Leigh shares the six methods they have tried over the years to thresh grain, some of them pretty innovative.
- Grains themselves:  Leigh gives a review of 11 kinds of grains and pseudograins, including planting suggestions, usages, and harvesting/processing suggestions.

At 45 pages and a price tag of $3.99, it is a very reasonable "gateway book" into the wonderful world of grain growing.

Leigh's works are described at Kikobian.  Her longer books are available at all the usual online places.  Her e-publications (including the one listed above) are available via Smashwords.com; her author page is here.  

If you are looking for a "how to start" book that will stay with you as you increase your planting (because of course you will), this book is the best deal anyone could have to an introduction on grain growing.

Thursday, September 18, 2025

The Collapse CCIV: Habeas Corpus

 12 December 20XX+1

My Dear Lucilius:

We had two surprises today.

The first – both a surprise as a blessing – is that Young Xerxes showed up at our house this morning. In snowshoes – garnered from the pairs that Pompeia Paulina had at her house. He brought a day that was both sunny and snowfall free with him, along with a second pair for me.

The second surprise – less welcome – was the news he brought. There was a body in the snow. A body no-one recognized.

Walking in snowshoes is a trick I had largely lost the talent for; at one time, Winter hikes were an occasional thing and having snowshoes was far superior to tramping through snow (to gain wet shoes) with the risk of postholing (sinking up to your knee or thigh) a risk. The picking up of my feet was not so bad after I got going; the fact I continue to look like a duck undoubtedly made for high comedy.

By the time I made it to the Post Office, there was a crowd of about a dozen or so – including, somewhat to my surprise, some of our erstwhile neighbors – gathered around an object leaned up against the building. Folks kindly cleared as I waddled my way forward.

Sure enough, it was a body.

It was a man – a very thin looking man, if the gauntness of his face was any indicator. His was curled up into a ball, lightly dusted with snow. He had what I would have considered “Summer gear” in these parts: jeans (cotton, become wet and damp easily), a long sleeve shirt with perhaps a layer or two beneath poking out, tennis shoes, and a beanie, and for some reason a beautiful gray cashmere scarf. No jacket, no gloves.

His extremities – fingers, nose, ears – were black with frostbite. His eyes – pale blue – were staring off into a distance that he could no longer see.

Someone pointed out that down the main road into town from the West, there were half covered footprints leading in. He had come then, sometime in the night before the snow had completely fallen, taking refuge against the post office (it is a large enough building in these parts and would have been fairly discernible – and died.

I scanned the crowd with raised eyebrows. People shook their heads all around: no-one recognized him.

There were two concerns in my mind at the moment. The first was any sort of transmissible disease that he might be carrying with him. The second was equally as pragmatic: with a huge dump of new snow, what were we going to do with the body?

I spoke sotto voce to Young Xerxes and off he went like a shot (well, really a snow-shoed shot) as the rest of us stood around. To keep people busy, I sent some of the younger folk down the road where his prints had come from to see how far they went. The rest of us waited, low mutterings around the circle punctuated by frosty clouds of breath.

Young Xerxes returned, bearing what I had asked for: Latex gloves. No sense in taking any risks. I put some on as he did and then, we pulled the body forward.

Only once have a touched a body in rigor mortis; it was as if I was moving a relatively solid piece of wood, not a body. The same was true here, with the caveat that in point of fact this was frozen wood. The sensation, even through the gloves, was not pleasant.

Keeping as much distance as we could manage, we “flipped” him over on the other side, like a fish in a pan that we were frying. This side was much colder and snow bound, of course. But nothing else was revealed.

His face and hands (from what I could see) bore no signs of obvious outbreak of sores or other skin outbreaks. I say “From what I could see”; I had no intention on bending closer to an unknown death.

Gingerly we felt around his pants and coat pockets. In one front pocket we found a Swiss Army knife stripped of its outer plastic siding, the metal parts exposed. There was a cell phone – probably dead now – with one of those wallet casing attachments on the back with some cards that I could not make out. Other than that, nothing: no rings, no jewelry, no weapons, no food.

An enigma.

Those I had sent off down the road came back; they said the trail had run straight down what was the old state highway from the West. Not a surprise, really – it was flat and one could relatively tell if one had gone off it.

Which, of course, left the body.

Three feet plus of snow and frozen ground does not lend itself a burial and just leaving a body around here might attract predators now looking for a meal or other sorts of predators later. It needed to move. I looked again to my energetic young friends: There was an oak about a half mile down the road; could they get the body there and place it? A discussion, 15 minutes later and a sled, and they were ready. Young Xerxes and I lifted the body up, instructed them to shovel a hole in the snow, and dump it in without touching it.

The crowd began to disperse, and even our Erstwhile former neighbors gave me a nod as they left. Young Xerxes and I waited until the burial party returned. It was easily 30 minutes; standing on the snow in snowshoes instead of in it mad for a better experience and after a week more or less inside, it was good to just stand outside.

Our young friends returned, reporting a successful mission. I suggested to Young Xerxes that we might go up there in a few days; given the nature of the Winter and animals about, I was of half a mind that the body would no longer be there.

I do not like mysteries, Lucilius. Especially the dead without explanation.

Your Obedient Servant, Seneca

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Marina Bay (II)

 A poem written about the Merlion:



A smaller version:


Another view of the Anderson bridge:


Just a chicken out for a day at the opera....


They had some amazing trees:


The Lim Bo Seng Memorial, dedicated to the memory of Lim Bo Seng (A.D. 1909-1944), a guerilla fighter against the Japanese following the fall of Singapore to the Japanese Imperial Army in A.D. 1942.  Imprisoned in A.D. 1942 and tortured, he died in captivity without revealing any information:



The memorial. It includes an octagonal tower and four guardian lions from Chinese architecture. There inscriptions in English, Chinese, Malay, and Tamil:




The front of the Concert Hall with a statue of Stamford Raffles, considered in some aspects the founder of modern Singapore.



Tuesday, September 16, 2025

2025 Cambodia And Vietnam: Marina Bay (I)

 The second stop on our (arguably) whirlwind tour of Singapore was Marina Bay, which is one of Urban districts of Singapore.  This particular area borders on new development (as a redevelopment zone) as well as historical buildings as well.

Part of downtown Singapore.  Remove the tropical setting, and it could be downtown anywhere:


The Victoria Theater and Concert Hall.  Originally started in A.D. 1862, it was initially completed in A.D. 1909 and renovated from A.D. 2010-2014:


The Anderson Bridge, built A.D. 1908-1910.  Crossing the Singapore River, it is part of the F1 circuit when the race is run in Singapore:



The Merlion is a symbol of Singapore.  Although mythical sea creatures have been part of Malay, Chinese, and European history, there is no specific relation from any of those to this.  It was originally designed in the A.D. 1960's for the tourism board.  The merlion combines the fish, which symbolized Singapore's origins as a fishing village called Temasek, or "sea town", and the head of a lion, symbolizing Singapore's original name of Singapura, or "lion city".  Interesting, the original was struck by lightning in A.D. 2009:


A view of The Marina Bay Sands, the world's most expensive casino valued at $6.9 billion.  If you think that it looks like a ship built on top of the towers you would be right:


Another view of downtown:


An example of a water taxi: