One of the starting points that virtually every book on success will tell you (and I have read more than my fair share) is that you have to a "Why", a reason that you are trying to accomplish what it is that you are about. With the "Why", every difficulty, every challenge can be pushed through; without it, almost any activity is doomed to failure because that underlying incentive is not there.
I have realized that I have lost my Why.
I am not really sure where it went, or even how long it has really been gone. I am certainly aware that it is no longer operative in my life.
It is not the same as a rut: a rut is just doing the same thing every day until you have worn a trail through your daily life. No, it is the thing that should have motivated you to get out of the rut in the first place or the incentive that keeps it from becoming a rut as you move on towards something else.
Oh, I could come up with things to fill the gap that exists: "Serve God", "Save the _____", "Do ___" - but they would simply be that, place fillers rather than something to spark my soul into action. Which hardly seems like a better solution.
How does one even go about rediscovering a Why? Maybe it felt like it was easier when I was younger; now, with responsibilities and timelines it feels as my Why has been reduced to meeting the responsibilities and lives of others (which to be clear, in some fashion I did sign up for).
I do not quite know how to find my why. I just know that I really, really need to find it. Because without that spark, mediocrity becomes all too easy.