Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Detoxification Begins

So you are all going to laugh:  I find myself with nothing to write about.

It is odd to me.  The change in jobs has not a little to do with it.  It has been so long since I have had a major irritant removed from my life that I scarcely know what to do with myself.

My commute, at least for the last two days running, was 35 minutes.  That is total, there and back again - a huge change from a minimum of 1.5 hours to 2.5 hours.  Hardly enough time to even really listen to anything on the radio.   Certainly not enough time to get aggravated about things.

I walk in the door and I am almost numb - not from work but from a lack of anything that has caused me distress at work.

I have almost 2 to 3 hours a day now that I did not have before.  Time to do things - things like read, think, undertake an activity that I have not done in a while.

To be honest, this whole thing is very confusing to me.

What do you do when the emotional energy that you have been expending into trying to survive from day to day suddenly is dissipated at the things that were causing it to exist in the first place?  What do you do when you suddenly find silence in  your soul?

This is not a result that I had anticipated.


Anonymous said...

Just roll with it. Give yourself time to decompress. I went through this myself. It took a bit to settle down.

Rev. Paul said...

"What do you do when you suddenly find silence in your soul?"

First, I would praise God for the relief - and then I would begin seeking things for which a passion could develop. YMMV, and all that.

kymber said...

TB -when we first arrived at the the begining of winter - we had to deal with water pipes busting, an uninsulated cottage, a ton of snow and the worst winter ever, melting snow for water to cook, clean dishes and bathe in...and after all of that scrambling - we were left with....huh? peace and quiet? the sun? meeting neighbours and going to events? enjoying ourselves? downtime?

it will take a while buddy but when you hit the sweet spot - you are going to be like a mad man on an adventure. you'll learn very quickly what to do with those extra hours and you will be in for the thrill of your life.

take a look at our most recent post - because we have settled into this new normality - we did what chores needed to be done this morning, did them, packed a cooler and headed to the beach - our own private beach! we did beach stuff, came home, a few more chores and now it's off to napping!

once you are used to it - and it will take a while with your head spinning saying "what am i supposed to do with this extra time???".
but once you are used to it - you will love it. and thrive in it. i know that you understand what i am saying!

sending love as always buddy! your friend,

PeteForester1 said...

What do you do? ENJOY IT! For thirteen years, I lived in a neighborhood that, thanks to over-the-moon liberalism, had descended into a welfare bum rental-rendezvous. I finally found another place. Truly; I didn't know how stressed out I was in the old neighborhood until I was clear of it!

Thank God, and enjoy the gift!

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

That is what I have been told. I guess I am eager to be on to the next phase, but perhaps I need to simply embrace this time in order to allow any left over issues to not transfer over.

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

Yes, and yes. That thought actually came to me this evening: "As long as this time is beginning to manifest itself, how can I use it productively".

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

Thank you Pete - Although I am typically not known for "enjoying" things the way I should. I shall try and monitor myself accordingly.

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

Thank you Kymber. I am already finding I am in a far better mood when I get home in the evening - after all, after only 20 minutes in traffic, how irritated can I be?

I am attempting to ease slowly into some things instead of immediately trying to fill the time up as I do not want to just impulsively start doing things and I want to leave things open - after all, that is where the adventure and new learning starts!

Much love, TB