I am worn in this matter,
more than I can admit.
Constantly struggling- and mostly failing.
I wish I could say I was getting better,
that there was progress being made,
that "it" was decreasing - but it is not.
I asked for deliverance but it has not come:
only the long burning ache of my bones
and pain in my heart as I plod on.
Perhaps there is relief,
or perhaps only the pain of the struggle,
until the Final removal comes.