Yesterday this came as part of a message from The Viking:
"I say this with love, you need to change your inner monologue to focus on positivity. You're a smart, talented and kind hearted man. I place a high value on you, we all do."
It came from completely out of nowhere. It was something that was neither mentioned in conversation nor prompted by anything I am aware of.
But there it is "You need to change your inner monologue to focus on positivity."
I know that I have issues with, I guess, negativity? Not quite depression, but never quite happiness either.
Tomorrow, as you might know, is the beginning of the season of Lent. We are counseled to deny ourselves things as a outward sign of denial and mourning. I will do the one or two things I typically do for denial, such as giving up sugar (a standby) or fasting from internet news (a necessity). But this year I think I will add one more thing, an adding to rather than denial of: for 40 days I will not allow (or will try to not allow) myself to fall into negativity. If I find myself falling there, I will simply have to come up with to think about instead - a list of 10 things to be positive for, or simply a self pep talk. But for 40 days, I will try to not allow anything negative into my thought life.
It will be hard - far more challenging than simply giving up chocolate. But if The Viking says something like that, it is something I need to pay attention to.