I am just not cut out for office politics.
I am neck deep in them again, People jockeying for position, professional pride hurt, loss of face invoked. People are stressed and when they become stressed they become sensitive and when they become sensitive, comments and situations which could otherwise be resolved in a simple conversation or even a five word sentence become issues requiring the highest levels of corporate to resolve; simple projects become the equivalent of building the Hoover Dam. All for perceived appearance or having to do a bit of extra work.
These things tire me. They always have, but it seems even more now. Having to nuance e-mails and messages, to carefully guard words and actions, to watch with whom one speaks and always be concerned that one is not the focal point of "finger pointing" - and to have worry that one's employees are under the same pressure - is exhausting.
It says a lot about one's employer, of course, that this sort of situation is allowed to exist and grow. How can anyone not see that this takes away from actual productive work? People who feel constrained in their words and thoughts and are driven by the need to "play games" to get by will never be as effective or hard working as those who are not burdened by such activities?
I wish I knew. I surely do not. All I do know is that such activities are a lesson of sort - a lesson of what person and what company not to be.
Let us seek to be known for our work, not the level of politics and carefulness of our words and actions we must engage in.