Tuesday, June 06, 2017

Overwhelmed By Inputs

Have you ever reached a point where you are so overwhelmed by inputs that you can scarcely make sense of it all?

This is what the past week has felt like to me.  Between personal life - Nighean Gheal graduating from high school - and a series of national and world events that just in a six month period would have left one's breath taken away, let alone a week - it feels as if the whole world is simply accelerating.

Towards what?  I wish I had a better - or perhaps more correctly said, a happier - sense of it all.  But all I can see, except for a few glimmers  of light (like graduations, for example) is a sort of endless, mind numbing, overloaded darkness.

It is not that it is especially depressing - perhaps simply from the fact that even depression feels like more of an organized thought pattern than I can muster at the moment.  It is more of a sense of events moving faster than I can make sense of them.

Unchecked, this sort of thing can lead to madness.  Too many what ifs and might bes to fully comprehend, a swirling vortex of possibilities that lead to nowhere particularly welcoming. It is like H.P. Lovecraft's fictional Necrononicon by Abdul Alhazred, purported to drive anyone who dared to plumb its depths mad.

Which is why, I suppose, the simples things of my life - rabbits and gardens and harps and books and even Iai - have a power far beyond their humble activities.  They allow one to make sense of one's world in the small, still areas of dappled sunlight amidst the clouds, the quiet sense of something that is useful and good simply in its execution.

True, a rabbit will never avert the end of the world and most gardens are a far cry from the sort of thing that one might actually need if things were to go badly - but honestly, in the event such things were to happen what would I remember more:  the violence and tragedy of the world's events or the quiet sound of a rabbit eating hay?

7 comments:

Rain said...

The simpler things, all of Nature, is what's important to me. People will always try to kill each other and make each other miserable, so I want little to nothing to do with them. I'm able to live away from society and I feel just fine with that.

LindaG said...

As far as I can tell, everything is speeding up. Wasn't it January just last week?
Time to take a break and do something you like. Go fishing. Start a garden. Sit outside and listen to the wildlife. Go... well, you probably get my point.

Sounds like you get the idea. Rabbit is supposed to be the best thing to raise for meat on a homestead, because they have so many so often.
We have learned (sometimes the hard way) that farmers don't have it so easy.

God bless.

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

I certainly understand nature a great deal more, Rain. I don't think I can get far enough away from civilization at this point.

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

It does feel like everything is accelerating more quickly than ever - to what end, I am not sure.

My rabbits are my buds. Best pets ever. I will probably have to raise more beans and lentils to make up for the protein.

LindaG said...

Or just go fishing. :)
But beans are good too. Give red noodle beans a try. :)

Toirdhealbheach Beucail said...

Sigh. I could around here I guess, but all we have is bass and catfish. If we had trout, that would be a different story...

I will look for red noodle beans. Thanks for the suggestion!

LindaG said...

Aw. I love fried catfish fillets. I'm with you on the bass. Next best to me is panfish. Bluegill, sunfish, etc.

Hope you like the beans. Very easy to grow!