It is the off-work schedule that tells us more about our time than the work schedule.
I am off of work this week - time to burn and two "free" days have made this a recurring holiday over the years. With the advent of vacation, of course, my whole morning and evening timeline tends to fall apart - I am not getting up at a very early hour, not blogging as early (obviously), not having to drive to work and back and fit things in.
The question is, how am I using that time instead?
Not well, I am afraid.
I dither. I find myself easily diverted by lesser things that I would perceive to be of lesser importance usually, I find myself without drive, without a task list. Whenever I think about making a task list my immediate internal response is "I am on vacation".
My initial response is to say "This is not right. I should have a list of everything I need to be working on when I am not at work. I have things that need to be accomplished - why am I not doing them?" And I suppose to some extent that is true: there are projects that need doing, things that if they are not scheduled will never get done.
But is that response right? Not completely,
If things are as tightly scheduled on my off days as my on days, then something is wrong. If I leave no time for relaxation or simply "doing" things, can it be said that my life is any better than if I were just doing everything I had to do all the time.
Yes, I need to write some things in. But also yes, I need to just take some time to just simply allow myself to do and be. Because creativity and doing or being is not always found in the regimented moments of a life.