In talking with A Chailin Ruadh yesterday, we were both lamenting the fact that our lives seem to be in some kind of stasis or time warp, really moving nowhere even where others seem to be. "You know what I wish for?" I wrote to her. "I would love a break through year." She agreed that such a thing would indeed be wonderful.
Which got me to thinking: what would constitute a "breakthrough" year?
"Breakthrough: An act or instance of moving through or beyond an obstacle; a sudden advance in knowledge or technique" (Thanks, Merriam-Webster.)
So, moving through or beyond a barrier, huh? Some sudden advance in knowledge or technique?
When I think of a breakout, I think of something that is just significantly above and beyond anything that has happened for a while. Like an actual change in living versus always thinking about it. Like overcoming some great obstacle in my life that I have been fighting in my life for years. Like moving forward with one or more of my goals in a way that is demonstrable and noticeable?
Man, when was the last time something like that happened?
I suppose it is just that it does not feel like that kind of thing has happened - in a long time. The end of the year is a great deal like the beginning of the year; the changing of the guard on December 31st comes to seem the same year after year.
But what would be like to get to the end of the year and realize that things are different - in a very good way - than when you were started? What, really, would it be like? And why is it I have trouble picturing that such a thing would be?
Is there anything you can do, even just something small, that will move you forward towards the lifestyle you want to live? I feel stuck here sometimes. I always show the nice side of things living in this village, but the neighbours are loud and they just plain suck. I try to work on the gardens, learn more about self sufficiency and make my own things...just try to move ahead towards more of a hermit existence, even though I'm still around society. It makes me feel less like I"m under house arrest lol...
ReplyDeleteNot sure what to say to this, TB, but for some reason I feel I should share the link of a blog I read. Maybe reading back through his posts might help you in some way that I am not aware of.
ReplyDeleteOr maybe I am way out in left field. If so, I apologize.
But for good or bad, here is the link.
http://planningandforesight.blogspot.com
Be safe and God bless you all. ♥
It is a legitimate question Rain, and undoubtedly there are some small thing that would move me in that direction - things I shall have to put on the goal list for next year. But what I am pondering, in my soul, is that the incremental process seems to get lost in the noise after a long period of time. What I guess I am look for is some kind of jump start, something that will make me feel like I am actually making progress instead of just inching along.
ReplyDeleteThanks Linda! I am always looking for useful blogs. I went by there and I recognized his "Good Dadding" post from seeing it in some other places.
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