I have had a little over a week now to reflect on my post An Open Letter To: Men. And I have had a week to watch the "wonderful" world of media.
It is amazing how putting one's self in the conscious state of mind of always "on alert" changes the outlook. Suddenly, I was noticing potential places where I was becoming vulnerable: a walkthrough of a document room with a door that would close, the off-hand conversation in a conference room that you instinctively close the door on before you even think.
All of it perfectly innocent of course. But all of it is a potential risk - a minefield that can explode in one's face years after.
I have monitored my conversations more. Monitored where I spend my time and on what, both in the real world and on the InterWeb.
It has really been an eye opening experience.
For one, turns out I do not need to talk nearly as much as I think I do. Turns out in many ways, I really can be my own best company.
My digital footprint has also come to my attention - yes, it is not much, but it still leaves a trail. And in odd ways as well, things I had never thought of: what I watch of Netflix was one example that really grabbed my attention this week (along with the time that I was spending on it). E-mails of course and texts which although not much under my current regime, still represent a point that needs to be controlled.
Everything has to happen in a different context, now. And to be frank, I finding that I am now acquiring greater inner silences. Which is turning out to be a wonderful thing.
Am I any happier we are here? Not at all. But there is a certain serenity to simply accepting the world as it has become and silently, invisibly, passing through it.
I read this post yesterday, but did not have the time or the head space to respond, and even now I am not sure of what I should write because if I went in to full flow then this comment would be a mile long.
ReplyDeleteIt is wonderful that you are managing to achieve the inner silence, when you are connecting to your true self and so are also connecting with the energies of the Universe (God.....) You will find yourself becoming wiser, that different people will connect with you, that your friendship circle will change, that you will find yourself changing your perceptions of the world and all who are in it, and that you not 'silently, invisibly, passing through it' but are acting as a source of loving energy on God's behalf.
Sending blessings to you.
Oh, I am a fan of mile long thoughts Vera. You need never fear that with me.
ReplyDeleteWhat you are expressing is exactly what I am finding, in very small doses. The more silence I have, or even the more thought I have on significant subjects (instead of trivia or entertainment), the deeper and hopefully more meaningful those thoughts are becoming.
I very much appreciate the blessings. I need all the help I can get!