It is as if there are places my mind has now decided it cannot go, thoughts it cannot think, feelings it cannot enable. It is odd, a sort of silent quietness of the soul.
I do not feel any different. I feel no "better" about myself than last week at this time, not different in terms of the Beatitudes or anything else I should be actually doing and displaying in my life.
There is a certain emptiness that I cannot translate into words, a sort of formless energy that is just sitting there - not particularly anxious or wanting to get out, just sort of there.
And, for what it is worth, I do not feel like I am "pleasing" God any more than I was before. Perhaps it is just the simple feeling that I am not messing up quite as badly as I might otherwise have.
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ReplyDeleteThanks Linda. Some days are better than others.
DeleteGod says "Be still, and know that I am God." (Ps 46:10). Truly, God is pleased when you do this, especially when you are waiting on His will for you. Don't be discouraged; silence let's you hear His whisper... (1 Kings 19:12)
ReplyDeleteAh Pete - Excellent verses indeed sir. My problem is patience - and being still. I am afraid I am bit of a whirlwind...
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