Carrying Motivation

Motivation can be a hard thing to capture at times, especially when the motivation you are trying to capture is to break out of a current chain which you care little for.

You want too, of course and you should have every reason:  the road that led to this point is has reached a wall that simply cannot be crossed and other roads seem to branch off from this point.   And to say on this current course of action is to ensure that nothing changes at all and nothing will change at all, that you will be exactly in the same condition you are, the condition you loathe so much.

And yet you sit there, looking at the wall, unable to turn.

Why?  Because you suddenly realize that every road that leads from this wall is really just leading to the same sort of wall somewhere else.  The scenery may change but the end result at least seems to be the same as the result you are facing.   And thus motivation slips between your fingers as you consider the fact that in changing, you are likely not to change anything at all.

Which is a bit ridiculous, of course.  Not all change is bad, even if it lies in merely shifting from one thing to another in the same palette.  We cannot see all things that will happen in the future even though parts of it look the same as they current existence we have.  The thing that looks so similar to that which currently know may in fact be the gateway into something we totally cannot imagine at this point. 

It is foolish not to at least try these other roads - but oh, the sinking sense of turning to face a road on which the pavement and lines appear so much like road that we are on.  In a sense it almost becomes an act of faith, a belief that things can change even when they seem that they cannot.

Which makes for an important lesson:  motivation cannot always be counted on to be the initiator of an action.  Sometimes we must carry it on our backs until, energized by progress, it is able to start walking on its own.