...will not, as the song says, do you good - or at least feel like it.
The last two week have been an amazing observation in self discomfort. Frankly put, I am out of sorts. I am physically feeling out of it, even though I have been getting far more sleep than I have in years.
I am spiritually feeling out of it - kind of like a fog that seems to come over me. The Word seems dead, and the heavens seem as brass. Motivating myself to prayer seems like a monumental effort, and once it is accomplished, I've nothing to say.
Intellectually, I'm scattered brained and bored. I can hardly keep my mind to a task, often overwhelmed by a feeling of futility.
I had no idea that change would create this much discomfort in my life.
And then I think "I"m a wimp. If only a job change causes this, what about the people who have real change in their lives?" Have I become so ingrained into my life that such a minor thing as a job change turns my world upside down?
Been there. Done that. Bought a t-shirt. Sometimes I wonder if the journey IS the point...
ReplyDeleteAnyway, good post. Keep digging.
See my post from this morning (09/11/08). I know as a man I tend to put too much emphasis into my job as a my primary support instead of God. Perhaps I am reflecting the fact that a job is simply that, a job - not a personal salvation.
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